last night i was hanging out with a new friend, and our conversation got a little deep for knowing a person for a week. my friend ended up telling me some pretty heavy stuff about his identification with a certain gender. i was really impressed with the strength and togetherness that he had. unfortunately, i didn't know a lot about gender identity disorder and i asked a bunch of questions. i didn't mean to be disrespectful, i was just curious. he said he liked answering questions, but i still feel stupid. i feel unworldly and hickish. there is so much about people that i don't know or understand. i don't know

i've always felt that i was a gay dude trapped in a lesbian body.

Really? Wouldn't that be the reverse? Gender disorder, bell_jar, is not considered common knowledge, so don't feel bad. he was probably happy that you were interested and non-judgemental about it.

I'm a lesbian trapped in a man's body... HELP ME!!!!! Ok, well aside from the joking, bell_jar that actually is pretty cool, my bestfriend Jenna decided to come out of the closet about 2 years ago, she told me first... Damn near killed me, because for 4 years previous we'd joked about it here and there, and would be walking down the street and both look at chicks. I'm proud of her. Ok, I'll shut up now.

it's very strange when you have a gay male friend (this is a guy i went on a couple of dates with) and he rushes out of a store or something when he sees you coming to point out the cute guy behind the counter. but this is another of those people that i have no clue about how to get in contact with anymore. he stopped playing music, his dad disowned him for being gay, he dropped out of college and the last i heard was moving in with people whom he'd met only a week before on the internet.

Gay Friends of the oppoiste sex rule.

i often wish i was male. i never liked being female, nor am i very good at it.

Funny, I wish the same thing... Wait a minute... Yeah, I think thats what I meant.

I love being a girl. I get to be cute and cuddly and brag about it and it only makes me cuter. Boys are cuter when they deny their cuteness, but girls get to revel in it and it only maximizes their cutieosity. "cutieosity" isn't actually a word, but isn't it cute how I just made it up like that?

is that true? i suffer from low self-esteem (me and millions of other people), but even if i thought i was cute i didn't think it was cute to think it. what the fudge did i just say? i know that "cute" and "pretty" are different, but in your explanation do women that think they are pretty get prettier for thinking they are? ugh. it's too confusing.

i think i'm cute. i think i'm cute. i am cute. am i cuter?

Yes. I am in no way shape or form cute. "Shape or form" is a pretty retarded saying, as they are the same thing.

aw, that was cute, sem. and retarded!

i'm pretty cute, but i'm kind of fat. i'm okay with it, though.

I am cute as a button. What ever the hell that means. Folks have said that to me that I am cute as a button. This old lady use to say I am cute as a bugs ear. I never seen a button or a bugs ear that is cute. But I am very cute and cuddely and I am also real modest.

After having run my cuteness scanner over the entirety of this (disgustingly dirty) apartment, I have conclusively concluded that there isn't a speck of cuteness in the place. That's something of an achievement, I think.

tom the anticute. what's new?

so what's the definative definition of cute?

not tuse. not much. recently moved into the shittiest apartment complex in Portland. And parted ways with my employer, so I'll probably be making my triumphant sorabji comeback. Or something. cute... you can't really define cute in one go, I think. There's the sexual cute and the small child cute and the maybe a separate entry for the negative cute? as in "that movie was... cute, but not the devastating social critique that it set out to be." or something. definitely drinky time. Who knows who Drinky Crow is? There's a comic strip here that features a character by that name, but the same character is found on TMBG merchandise. *shrug*

tom, what happened to you? i think i almost ran you over once in my car. i'm sorry.

I probably deserved. So that's okay. I think I'll go over to "drunken ramblings" now, thank you very much.

wait...is this the tom...as in the isolde/tom thingy?

yeah. it's that tom. the bastard.

I don't know what happened and frankly I don't care, its none of my business... I mean yeah I care, but not enough to find out what happpened because i can't change anything, I have other things to worry about as to why my life is going down the fucking tunnel of shit. FLUSHED.

who cares what the real story is, when you have the opportunity to say bastard you do it.