I feel completely alone. It seems as though all of my friends have ditched me and now here I am, alone, on a friday night, sitting in front of a computer. The thing is: I don't really know who I want to be comforted by. I can't even find a chat room on AOL that I want to go in. All the people on my speed dial are busy..... the few people that are home aren't people that I want to talk to. My ex-boyfriend is out with my "friends". Even he is haveing more fun that I am. They all blew me off hen I was there. Don't they realize that I have feelings and that it hurts when they ignore me? Sometimes it seems like they try to hurt me. Sometimes all I want to do is curl into a little ball and cry. One time I was on a trip with a bunch of friends. One of the guys said something that made me really upset. I went into the camper and walked by my boyfriend at the time and closed myself in the back room. He was mad that I didn't want to talk to him about it. I think he was really mad that he couldn't make me feel better. This guy came in, a guy friend, and he asked if he could sit down. I said okay. He sat down next to me and started eating cheese and crackeers or something. We sat there in silence for a while and then he started talking about something completely different from what I was upset at. He made me laugh. Then he said,"Fuck Chris. He's just an ass." And that's it. I think it was the best comforting moment of my life. Plus I have a rule about crying in front of people. I like to hide my feelings from people. I figure that they don't need to know how I really feel because it would just make their lives more complicated. So when I feel as though I am going to burst with emotions, I draw, or write. Sometimes here....... Thanks for listening. PS. My boyfriend at the time was later pissed because he thought I was flirting with the guy friend who made me feel better. Go figure.

i didn't read a damn bit of that but, i'll be your friend. got any beer?

it's people like you who make good people suicidal. And yes I have beer but you can't have any. TThhhhpppppttttt

that's ok, i've got my own beer. if yer bad you won't kill yerself

There have been times when I have been so bored and so lonely, I would have shared my beer with Charles Manson just for some company.

boy would you giggle yer ass off if you could see me. ( in reference to the manson thing ) come to my party on saturday.

Uh-huh...I'll need directions and a really fun group of poeple and I'd love to be there...

ok. take circle to clancy, go right to pendygrass and turn left at the seven eleven. follow pendygrass to the end and turn left at lochrie. it's 247. as for the fun people i've imported some professionals from guam.

Guam? Well alright, in that case, I CANT miss it...now just what the hell country are you in and maybe my compass will be of more assistance.

i'm in the big country

Australia?

yeah sure, maybe china, it's big too. not!

Big Country...ummmm...uhhhh.....hmmmmm....

Just kidding, but Aussie IS the big country in this part of the world. So, is it snowing in Canada yet? ;)

it snowed about two feet last week and now it's tanning weather again. go figure

Well it's spring here, and half the country is flooded, and the other half is facing another drought! I live in the half that is in the drought zone. And we had a sizeable earthquake last week, but it was centred out to sea off the West Coast of the South Island, so no damage was done.

I was rocking along with that earthquake... it was fun... four floors up *g*

Half the people I know didn't even notice it! Mind you, it's less obvious on the ground floor.

i live in a natural disaster free zone. cool heah.

Lucky you. But on't worry, I'm sure La Nina will mess up your weather too! :P

our weather is always messed up. and our fuckin' taxes are too high. hell i'm a little of both myslf.

This is in response to the lady who made the initial comment. Your ex-boyfriend sounds like a classic abusive personality to me. If you haven't completely broken it off with him, do so. If you have, you might want to kill him. (wait, can I say that without being blamed if she does kill him) Skachick, if you kill him, for the Gods' sakes, don't get caught. If I'm wrong, well, 90% of men are a waste of oxygen anyway and this guy does not sound like he's in the top 10%. One less will not be missed.

I don't know who the hell you are, and you wrote this six years ago, but welcome to the club. Right now my friends all went bowling. They never even bothered to ask if I could come. :-(

that's so to the limit.