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By MacBeath on Tuesday, November 25, 1997 - 12:39 pm:
    I have failed to be completely honest. I have failed to love as I should, let go when it was time, send birthday cards to anyone I know. I have failed to phone when I was late, call my mother, allow my friends their space. I have also failed to own up to some of my mistakes, look after my things, make sure my family knows who I am. I have failed to think things through, let things lie, do things now. Do these things matter because I *care* that I have failed??

 

By Paulette on Tuesday, November 25, 1997 - 02:29 pm:
    MacBeath,
    I hear ya but please don't fail to not be too hard on yourself. That would really be a drag. You might be moping for too long. Like the 'counselor' at the ('sliding scale') $3 Trinity counseling session said long ago. . ."write things down and improve" . . that's not really what she said but it's kinda close. Guilt sucks. Wallow in it if you must but it's best to jump out. You're probably not really a jerk at all. Am I wrong here?
    PF Have a good Thanksgiving. .. . On All Things Considered Radio show they were talking about what they sang in 1643? at the first one. 1602? Who's counting. . .

 

By MacBeath on Wednesday, November 26, 1997 - 07:08 am:
    Paulette,

    wise words indeed. We ought not wallow. But - shouldn't our aim be to live the best life we can? Shouldn't we be trying to be better than those who went before us - less petty, less prejudiced, less thoughtless. Shouldn't we always be trying to be *more*? In this way guilt is a tool, to be used, to lever us into being better people. It is easy to abandon those feelings that make us feel bad - who wants to feel bad? It's not nice. (Never mind the truism that if we never feel bad we can never feel good...) The things I have done wrong are things everyone does wrong. I have noticed an alarming tendency in people of late - they simply brush these mistakes under the carpet. I whisper to myself - "be better..." I try. Is this enough?? Or is it like Yoda says, "Do or do not; there is no try."?
By Fredescu on Wednesday, November 26, 1997 - 04:50 pm:
    Guilt and Ambition are two different things.

    Ambition needs not be born from guilt.
By MacBeath on Thursday, November 27, 1997 - 06:22 am:
    Fredescu,

    You are quite right, of course. But what I'm saying is that guilt is born of ambition. Or more specifically - failing to do one's utmost to fulfill whatever ambition you hold most dear. If there were no negative feeling there why would you ever bother to do anything? Everything would be fine whether you made an effort, tried your best or not. I maintain - this brand of guilt can be a good thing, and should not be brushed aside.

    oh and Paulette? - I forgot: I'd love to have a happy thanksgiving but we do do it here. You have (had?) one tho'.
By PF on Thursday, November 27, 1997 - 12:00 pm:
    Hey Folks!
    I just now saw the post-postings. . .happens to be on my way out of the abode here though but I do want to take the time to thank MacBeath for being kind enough to take the time and help me with my question about Netscape. So. . Publicly I thank you.
    Paulette
By Dr.Marks on Wednesday, December 3, 1997 - 11:13 pm:
    Live and learn MacBeath......that is how you do it.You`ll get alot more out of it
    if try not to make it so difficult.
By Fredescu on Thursday, December 4, 1997 - 04:54 pm:
    Macbeath,

    So Ambition creates guilt which in turn creates more ambition?

    I think I like that idea.
By Amber on Monday, December 15, 1997 - 05:12 pm:
    I have failed..to let go when i need to..be honest and truthful to myself and my feelings..i have failed to tell someone i love them..before it was too late..i have failed with aspirin bottles.adn razor blades..i have failed human kind...
By Long Winded and mental on Tuesday, December 16, 1997 - 02:33 pm:
    Hey Amber, just think of the last thing you could say "Boy I'm glad I'm around so that THAT happened!" about. There ARE more of those moments that WILL happen. Don't miss them. Now if you off yourself you will be very pissed off because you will not have a physical body anymore. You'll just be hovering and more than likely you will just have to come back and do it over. See you life through you idiot. No matter what a drag it is or Seems to be. . . My brother once told me when some fool mistakenly told him that he was worried about me. . .afraid that I sounded like I might do something drastic (like off myself). Well, my brother drove right over (from reel far away) and acted like he just wanted to drop in.
    "Climb off it Marsha". . . remember that one from the Twilight Zone episode? All of the store mannequins would each their turn have one day to become alive. One of them must have been called Marsha because that's what the other mannequins told her when she didn't want to go back to being a store mannequin after her day of being able to move around a bit. So, "Climb off it Marsha!" We all need a turn.

    Eventually he let me know that some guy had called him (by looking his name up in the 411 directory)
    and asked him to check in on me. (The nerve!) IN any case, my brother said "OK, so you want to kill yourself huh?" "All right, say that you're dead, Now do anything you'd like to do because you're dead" (Living dead you know) If things are so horrible just SAY ok, I'm dead, now do anything you want to do (not to harm others though) because it doesn't matter. Can you catch the drift?
    I hope you're just wallowing in self-pity and all but . . . . . Just try to enjoy these moments on Earth.
By Gypsie on Thursday, December 18, 1997 - 09:31 pm:
    I Just Could Not Keep it Up LOng>>>>)
    So She Had to cheat on me i can't take it any longer i must yes i must-------aaaaaaaaaarrrrrrg.
By Dr. Zorba on Saturday, December 20, 1997 - 11:08 am:
    How did that song go . . "Be A Man, Kill Yourself" dum de dum dah da DAH
By Giraffe on Sunday, December 21, 1997 - 10:47 pm:
    I have failed in phone-sex without using the device, bring me to my punishers...
By Inlovewscottellis on Tuesday, December 23, 1997 - 01:49 pm:
    don't be so hard on yourself ! Just about everyone is the same way. I never call when I'm late or stupid things like that . So you don't rush into your feelings that's okay! It takes time
By MacBeath on Tuesday, February 3, 1998 - 12:16 pm:
    Fredescu takes my point well - I am glad to have failed and to know that I have failed, that without this we cannot get better. That we all have failed - how dull would things be otherwise? If I wasn't aware of my failures then that would be a problem. If we wallow too long in our failures, then this would be a problem too. We must live more, analyse less no?
    Amber - your time will come. There will be another you will love. I thought there wouldn't be. I was wrong. And now it's right. Chin up superstar.
By Just plain mental on Friday, March 20, 1998 - 02:09 am:
    zzzzzzz......

    help I'm drowning in emotion here
    somebody throw me a lighter
By Slacker on Friday, March 20, 1998 - 02:11 am:
    no way man i need my lighter so i can pack another bowl.
By Cleatus on Friday, March 20, 1998 - 07:02 am:
    Don't forget 1st day of spring is Cock Washin'Day
By Slacker on Friday, March 20, 1998 - 01:32 pm:
    that brings back some bad memories of march 20 last year when i was escorted from the golf course for falling off the ball washer.
By Knacker on Friday, March 20, 1998 - 07:46 pm:
    Ouch.
By Cleatus on Saturday, March 21, 1998 - 12:06 am:
    I'm now clean and feelin' free and easy. I can't wear my undies cuz undie washin' day aint till 1st of fall vicious fuckin' circle!
By Poopboy on Saturday, March 21, 1998 - 12:50 am:
    you can wash yer undies?
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By Youth In Asia on Sunday, April 26, 1998 - 01:07 am:
    Hack this!
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