I feel like I want to cry, too many things in my life welling up to catch me at one unexposed moment. Little things, things that have very little connection to those things that make me want to cry show up and my mind makes that connection and thats all she wrote. All I want to do is sit down and cry for a few hours with a shoulder to lean on, and I could do about half of that but my shoulder the one I lean on is the one for whom I cry.

Aw, Hal. Go find some place where you can be alone and cry all you want. When you feel like your life is going up in flames, a good cry is in order.

you're not alone, hal. there are plenty of shoulders. go find a coffee shop full of cuties. find a corner and start writing in your journal and then cry. a shoulder will present itself. CHIN UP YOU FUCKING PUSSY. are you afraid of that? not being afraid to be who you are is a great freedom. you're coming to new orleans, right?

I am? Was I informed of this did I miss something... When am I coming.

october sometime after the 14th, we haven't really settled that and by the way, that coffee house thing- it would totally work.

Has to be a weekend. I really don't think it will work otherwise. The dates of the fridays in October are: 5, 12, 19, 26. If that helps. you can tell I really really want to come, can't you? It's about goddamn time we had a party. Really. If you're still feeling bad, hal, you really need to come down.

sarah and i loosely decided that it had to be after the 15th. my sister gets married the 13th. could be a weekend absorbed in a week, come when you can. i've looked into lodging. i'm still looking. a place that would have been fun and fit random amounts of people is now run by a nazi with a 23 page rule book.

i want to make sure i get to have anal sex in new orleans. it seems fitting. get it? fitting? no. no you don't get it.

so you want to make sure you go at the same time as sem? don't worry, there's always lots of heroin-boys happy to do anything for ten bucks

crying never helps. crying always makes it worse. don't cry.

ok toughguy. it's just after two in the morning. you're walking up to your front door when you stumble and drop the case of beer you're carrying. every single bottle breaks and you watch the beer make mud in your front yard. your neighbor has beer. your neighbor would hear you sobbing. your neighbor would see your plight and offer you beer. beer. are you crying? ARE YOU CRYING NOW?

no, i'm calling it a night.

I ran out of tears a very long time ago. But at least I still have my perverse sense of humor,to keep me warm at night. Everyone needs to give some serious consideration to New Orleans Sorabjifest 2001. I have already begun formulating some mischievious activities for the extravaganza.And have implemented the assistance of a fellow sorabjite,to aid and abet my folly.Of course,my co-conspirator shall remain anonymous,well,because ,its just more fun that way. Surely,you didn't think I would show up empty handed??????????????????

Nate that was a very depressing story. And yes I will consider sorabjifest 2001 in New Orleans... Problem for me isn't time, I could get a weekend off work, for me its the money.

why New Orleans again?

Oh Hal,do consider it.It's just what you need.Grand fun to be had in the Big Easy.I have been considering several money making/aid the Sorabjifest participants,who are short on cash schemes. So maybe,with as many intelligent,smooth talking inhabitants as we boast,we can come up with some $ making ideas.I'm sorta playing around with a "documentary" type scenario,like a docu-drama of the trials and tribulations of Sorabji members making a pilgramage to their Mecca.Its all in the way you present something.There are many young,eclectic filmakers,that might find this an interesting opportunity. Also,I just got off the phone with J,[her computers down],and its looking like there is a strong possibility that she will be able to attend this fiesta! So don't give up yet.Lets all be creative,and see if we can't come up with some possibilities.

no. feeling pessimistic today.

new. york.

Vegas is cheaper for everyone and more gawdy than New Orleans. Why would New York be any easier on you agatha? you have a sister there or something? the airfare would be about the same right?

We (my crew and I) will be staying One Night Only in NO next saturday night. I just happened to book us into the classy budget hotel. $92 a night (that's including the tax), 2 double beds, parking at the hotel. the place is called the Crescent on Canal and is ten minutes walk from the Quarter. Even with only four to a room, that's less than $25 a night lodging. Biggest expense will be travel, and since it's the off season for tourists, probably be able to snoop around and find deals. You can eat cheap and good in the quarter. (One food destination for some should be the Clover Grill for the best diner food ever and free campy entertainment my the lads (ladies?) behind the counter.) I figure a total expense (for me anyway) of $50 lodging, $30 food, $100 beverages, and $250 for flight, $20 for cab. $450 total. That's about 7 or 8 pay periods for me. so, say 7 paychecks. I would have to save about $65 from each to make it. Like I siad before, it's the schedule. We'll probably be just beginning our huge motherfucker of a project that Month.That's why earlier would work better thatn later for me. Still, I could fly down on Friday night, get there late, and catch up with folks as long as one of you had a cell phone with them or we had a pre-arranged meeting place. (maybe we could talk to mark about having permission for sorabji t-shirts?) New York should be SON OF SORABJIFEST.

funny my cousin is in town and he and his wife are making their way around the US and last night he was saying how he walked into the Clover Grill in NO for a bite to eat, while his wife napped, and said it was a seedy scary joint. he's kinda on the socially conservative side...where as I appreciate the sometimes seedy. considering I wouldnt want to come to NO with out Nico....that pretty much doubles my expenses....safe to say we don't have an extra $800+ to spare these days. damn. that sucks. id love to hang with some of you freaks. a sorabji shirt would make me feel like a dork.

I don't think you'd need a sorabji shirt to feel like a dork. Maybe one day there can be a west coast sorabjifest.[frankly,I much prefer the west coast] Some sorabjites happen to be coming here,some live here or nearby,or are interested in coming here.Its not like it was intentionally planned.Its kinda like the 70's,its just happening,man. And,in all honesty,NO is rather decadent,so it seems rather fitting.

sarah and i decided!!! that's why new orleans!!! fuck you whiners [except for agatha]

I'm in, and I "THINK" TBone may be in too... Kinda working some details at the moment, but as far as I can tell with the way the proceedings are going that it may be a go.

my sister is getting married on october 7th in connecticut. i will be on the east coast from probably the fifth to the fourteenth, roughly. i could skate out of my family obligations towards the ends of those dates. maybe you should have a two part sorabjifest. you guys don't want to miss out on meeting swine. mark would probably not make himself present if i were there, but i could hang out with other friends while you all did that. come on! it will be fun! (thanks for excluding me from the whiners, heather)

i could make some ridiculous attempt to show up. but i might want to stay elusive. no current sorabjite has ever seen me.

*fucking you*

Heather makes perfect sense to me.I like her style. And now Hal and Tbone,too.I suspect a fine time will be had by all. My co-conspiritor will be pleased with the rising numbers of attendees.I have now included J in our mischief making activities,and we all know,three heads are better than one! Pez,if you prefer to remain elusive,we can pretend that we didn't see you.Or you could wear a clever disguise,and we could pretend that we didn't notice.That way you could come :)

stop fucking pez, patty. so we need a weekend. my vote is 17-19. the following weekend could work as well. my plan is to be there during the week before the weekend and leave on sunday.

damn damn damn damn I wish I could go But, alas, you all would enjoy it more with out me, I am sure.

Spunky,your'e just jealous cause you know there will be some good ass fucking going on,and you won't get any.Maybe that could be your motivation,to try and come :)

I am not into ass fucking, or any other type of beastiality (HEHEHE). That would be my motivation to stay home.

this is all easy for you to say mrs czarina as you are so damn close to Nawlins. im not fucking pez. i was fucking you, per heather.

well, stop fucking me then.

i think you were adding things again patrick i don't think i said, 'fuck nate, you whiners' whatever fuck as you will man. new orleans is gonna be weird. good thing it's all about drinkin.

17-19 is a weds-fri. I vote for 19-21 for main fest time. I am coming too you silly people, and a sorabji shirt would rock if it was of a stylized satan's severed head. Commit and clear schedules if you can, people! I'm inviting Gary Coleman.

Hey, I want to buy a t shirt if I cant go

19-21. yeah. i was looking at august. dumbass. that's my vote. 19-21.

Whats our logo gonna be? "FUCK YOU,YOU ASS" or maybe "I WAS ASS FUCKED IN NAWLINS" was it me you were fucking,Patrick? I'm slow today,I haven't slept.

I think it should just be a line drawing of Satan's Severed Head. it can be like a code. Maybe it can say Eat Hot Fuck on the back.

TBone and I are planning a 17-21, plans are falling into place. As for the Shirts, I think <front> Fuck you, you ass. <Back> Eat Hot Fuck. <Sleeve> Sorabji.com We dont' have to go with the sleeve, but I think somewhere on the shirt we should have a sorabji.com bottom of the back or something. For Mark's sake... That and out of curiousity have any of us heard from Mark on whether or not he might be able to make it?

maybe commission cris kirkwood of the meat puppets to do this thing. don't forget to get approval from our host before putting his brand on it.

yeah, right. i am defeated. fuck you, you asses.

oooh!

well, wearing a costume would be fun, but how to get to new orleans? i'm lucky if i get $200 a week and save more than $50. blah. i'll try, at least.

Damn...I won't be able to make Sorabjifest 2001. Fuck. I'm going to France with M at the end of the month, for two weeks, and hopefully to Napa in September for a long weekend. How about Boston in 2002? I'm moving in the spring.

Although if Gary Coleman commits to coming, I'll make the time.

napa my ass.

Your ass would just be a nice bonus, Nate.

Eh, t-shirts ae nice to talk about, but the important thing is getting there.

im kinda jaded, cause its the peak tourist season around here now and i see these silly people in large packs with the same shirt on that say odd things like "Doing it in STYLE!!!! Berthmark Landmass Baptist Choir 2001" or "The Fryetown Lions Club. ROARING ACROSS AMERICA"

http://customink.com/cink/r.jsp?E=tbone%40dirtyredcommie.com&F=sorabji TBone did a little research.

Nice. I like it

THIS IS ONLY A FIRST DRAFT. THIS IS WHAT THE FINAL SHIRT MAY LOOK LIKE. PLEASE BEAR WITH US. THANK YOU FOR YOUR TIME.

YOU'RE WELCOME.

Are people even a little interested? It doesn't sound like people particularly want tshirts. I was just playing around anyway, but if people are interested, I'd like some feedback/ideas for the design. Also, they won't sell less than six. Price depends on quantity. 6 shirts with 2 colors are $25 apiece. And of course we need Mark's ok.

http://customink.com/cink/r.jsp?E=tbone%40dirtyredcommie.com&F=sorabji3

don't include sorabji.com many problems solved

*sniff* *sniff* But it wouldn't be the same...

I think.... I think I hate how that damn page slows up my browser, for one. I also think that a good design would combine the devil's head (in red) with Nate's "Fucko!" text and maybe just leave the Eat Hot Fuck off it (which is swine's anyway, I bet he's got it copyrighted). The Eat Hot fuck/Fuck You You Ass combo as it is just isn't working for me right now. Quote us a price.

complain, complain....

fuck that. this here is what you're looking for. Believe me.

This page is not available? i'm still looking for something.

oooo. now i see it. oooooo. i'd buy that shirt.

how easily small minds are diverted..... YOU KNOW IT'S NOT NICE TO MAKE FUN OF PEOPLE. yeah....sorry. NO YOU'RE NOT. you're right. i'm not sorry. THAT'S RIGHT. NOW WHY WERE YOU MAKING FUN OF NATE? because it's fun? EXACTLY. BECAUSE IT'S FUN. hey nate! pull my finger! PBPPBBPBPBPBPBBPTTTTTHHHHHHH!!!!!!

i like that, but to see it, look here

Busted pages

wtf is up with that... i have no idea why it doesn't work.. FUCK!

let's try it again...but different. http://www.geocities.com/heksebarn/cardart/sfest.jpg feel the magic

okay, i give up. mail me for it or something. geoshitties.

follow link. remove sfest.jpg from the url. load that page. return sfest.jpg to the url. load that page. it works like that.

*mwah*

UM. FOLLOW MINE DAMMIT!!!

Yours is fucked too Heather.

yours sucked too heather nice work wisper. this is my fav: sleepydrawjen so where are the ass shots stashed?

it did work she changed it

sure sweetheart. we believe you.

Emily Shadwick!

(the ass shots are stored deep within my soul ) i knew you'd start looting the sub directory. fuckos. splat city is my fav, but i scanned all the good pieces huge when i forgot to lower the rez. those were all possibilities for a business card and promotional mailer. i hate self promotion

i didn't know you were emily shadwick.

im Peter Bannister

Nate, i swear to god.....it's not even funny anymore. *shudder* i can never go to England now. ever. (p.s. how the hell did you figure that out? MAIL ME please please so i can get rid of it)

Napa is not a happy place. Long weekend--pshaw. And I must really suck, because none of those pages loaded.

yes, napa sucks ass. and sonoma county produces better wine. sorry, wispa.