is it by choice?

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By Bell_jar on Friday, June 16, 2000 - 08:30 pm:

    i know i have friends... why can't i think of any right now? i can't seem to think of anyone that i want to be around, and yet i feel like being around people. argh. it appears that it will be another night with just oliver twist as a companion.

By Isolde on Friday, June 16, 2000 - 08:51 pm:

    Nothing wrong with Oliver Twist. Sometimes being alone is really nice. I'm baking an apricot pie. I've never made one. Will it be disgusting? Who knows. At any rate, you probably do have friends--and don't want to think of them right now.
    Go bay at the moon.

By Bell_jar on Saturday, June 17, 2000 - 01:29 am:

    apricot pie? i like dried apricots... that's about it. you'll have to tell me if it turns out well or not.

    i ended up going with my friend to this very lame party. i know better than to go to these types of parties... i always turn out to be the girl who is setting in the circle, but doesn't want it passed to her. i always get angry looks as if i'm trying to snub them. i'm not sure what i'm trying to do. i guess nothing.

    i'm sure i'll make it up to oliver tomorrow night.

By Isolde on Saturday, June 17, 2000 - 01:38 am:

    It turned out delicious. I mean, absolutely exquisite. It was so damn good. I can't really describe the flavour--I used cinnamon and ginger, mostly, and it turned out really well. I was surprised. I expected it to end up horrid.