Seems Long After the First


sorabji.com: When is the last time you had sex?: Seems Long After the First
By Marc on Monday, May 24, 2004 - 06:00 am:

    The last time I had sex must have been sometime around January. We were both virgins when we entered college.... We did it a few times when we got back to the university after Winter break, 'celebrating' our return, but how many times, when, and how seems like distant memories. We were in love, or so I thought--turns out that I was the one in love, and she was in the relationship to have a guy lusting over her and feel sympathetic for her when needed. Around the end of January she left for a little vacation, during which she decided that she didn't want to be in a relationship... only to sleep with a friend of her's (who was her ex several times over) a week later, and subsequently cling to him.

    She was the first and only girl I've had sex with, so when I remember her I think of sex, that being the biggest thing that happened between us. Heck, I'd like to break that curse; at one point I even begged my cousin to fix me up with some girl, _any_girl_, because I was so anxious to have sex that I would sacrifice emotions for the physical act. However, my emotions won, so here I am.

    I haven't had sex for perhaps over five months and it feels like an eternity. I know that some people go for even longer, sometimes years, but I guess I'm just not that good at patiently passing the time. I just can't do it without some kind of emotional attachment with my partner... or can I? That's the decision I keep trying to make, and is therefore delaying me from having sex.

    Sorry that I sound so depressive. Thanks for reading this. I found this message board when looking to see if other people get as crazy as I do. It's good to be able to get this kind of thing out to people that may understand me. So, to answer the question, it's been five strangely long months.


By Antigone on Monday, May 24, 2004 - 02:18 pm:

    Ah, youth.

    Fuck, man, you sound just like me when I was younger. It's like deja vu. I've been reading my journal from '96 just recently and many of the entries read much like your post.

    My advice from hindsight: never be with a woman just to be in a relationship. Never put up with abuse of any kind. This might not seem to apply to you, but it does. If you need an emotional attachment for sex and you need sex, you will get emotionally involved for the wrong reasons. Don't.


By PredictaBot3466 on Saturday, December 31, 2005 - 12:19 am:

    ...more stuff.,...yall cant touch me because I'm RICH and I'm a VAPIRE!!! 28 Days best movie ever...just wish I was a LESBAIN cuz they get REAL DRUNK and have TONS of sex EVER...