THIS IS A READ-ONLY ARCHIVE FROM THE SORABJI.COM MESSAGE BOARDS (1995-2016). |
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By Scott on Wednesday, March 11, 1998 - 02:17 am: |
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By Ouch on Sunday, March 22, 1998 - 01:31 am: |
Have you read the postings about the chick who fried her terrapin? That's sick and twisted. |
By Oddball Odd on Wednesday, June 17, 1998 - 01:25 pm: |
Forgive yourself, Scott! Ignore the people who come here to moralize and shame you. Have you ever done it since? NO? I didn't think so. I was kind of a cruel child in that way as well. I regret some things I did (put a metal trash can lid on my puppy and stood on it -6 years old-) but I was not responsible. I don't think you were at 12 either. You probably were acting out some aboriginal base killing preparatory ritual..or something. I dunno, sounds good. |
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What an idiot. This guy was a nut to begin with, so I don't know if he was just making it up. Either way, that sucks. Vivid memory. |
this one guy i know used to bury cats, leaving only their heads exposed. then he'd fire up a lawnmower & go mow the cats. horrific. blood everywhere. same kid would light birds on fire or force them through electric fans. the neighborhood guys used to play baseball w/ toads (using the toad instead of a ball). one of these guys, now in his 40s, still thinks it's pretty cool to kill random animals, just for the hell of it. these things always horrified me. my parents used to slap me around when i'd cringe over various acts of cruelty, telling me to get the hell over it. they always told me that when i heard an animal or person screaming in pain, to thank my lucky stars that it wasn't ME who was getting hurt (& if i couldn't get over it, then it would be me getting hurt, because they didn't want me to grow up to be "sensitive"). as a kid, when i moved from the city to the country, i had to butcher a lot of animals for food. i generally did what i was told. but i hated being around when people butchered pigs. i just couldn't hang around for the pig-sticking. i remember having a friend who hated it, too. we'd hide together under a bed holding hands, our heads buried under pillows, while the hog screamed & screamed. no surprise, my stepbrothers loved butchering the animals, especially the lambs & rabbits. but anyway, i digress. killing for food & killing to be a mean SOB are two entirely different things. |
being a good american boy i had RedRyder, compressed air bebe gun......I spotted a squirrel in the tree, took aim, WHAMO one half dead squirrel fell out of the tree........i felt so awful, the poor thing wasn't dead yet and I had to shoot it again up close to put it out of it's misery. the randomness and the senselessness of it i think tore me up the most. I cried to mama shortly thereafter. Oh wait, i actually did kill a possum as well, but that was after he had cut Sir Dudley Do Right the Dalamtion on the nose with his razor sharp claws. he got trapped in the back yard, the dog, being a dog, took him to task for stepping in his realm. Being an 11 year old boy, seeing your best friend bleeding.....well that possum died.....this time, still being a good american boy, i had my .22 available, with 200mm scope and all......it took one bullet. I did have the respect to bury it, the squirrel as well. Otherwise the senseless, pointless violence against the animals mentioned above simply distrubs and saddens me.....a lawn mower to a cat???? frog baseball? Did you grow up with Beavis and Butthead? I suspect so, |
the guy who killed the cats w/ a lawnmower was known throughout the neighborhood as "crazy george". i heard that he got religion in his late teens & grew up to be a preacher. no joke. so did another neighborhood bully. crazy george. jesus, what a head case. he got the crap beaten out of him by his domineering, overbearing grandmother. you could go by his house & hear it happening. sometimes, she'd tie him to the bed while he was still asleep & wake him up by beating him. crazy george had eyes just like charles manson. he was mean as hell...except to me. even when he started coming on to me, he was unfailingly polite. he'd beg me to touch him gently. he'd take me into a bathroom, turn off the lights, take off his clothes & beg me to "touch him nice". not even necessarily sexually, but just tenderly. i always felt kinda sorry for him, even though i hated the shit he did w/ animals. he seemed like such a lost soul. but i guess that soul's been saved now. i need to write a book? cool. because that's exactly what i'm doing. |
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but you know what? the shit happens every day, whether you're depressed about it or not. anyway, just thought i'd mention it. people frequently tell me that my fiction & poetry is "sick". but reality beats anything that my imagination can dream up. people are so goddamn cruel that it's mindbending. about the kiddie animal abuse issue: i do know people who seemed to "get over it". however, i know a few people who never did. i've heard a lot of arguments about child-generated animal abuse just being "a phase". i dunno. it's a phase i never personally felt compelled to go through. my husband had a violent phase in his youth, but completely confined his outbursts to people. like walking into a baptist church & just beating the piss out of people w/ a metal chair. that sort of thing. rites of passage. |
i have very few words about this (i'm shaken) the idea that the adults watched and shoved you around for being 'sensitive' really disturbs me all i could think was that these kids must have been being treated really badly by someone they couldn't stop or talk back to- that they had to take their pain out on something else. then you talked about george's life so i guess in some cases it was true. fetidbeaver- hearing about animals being hurt makes me feel awful- but hearing about the abused children (and adults) makes me feel a lot worse. sometimes i don't understand all the people putting their energy into saving and taking care of animals. there might be fewer abused animals to take care of if they were paying attention to humans. but yes- people suck |
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i grew up in different places around the country, but i've lived in arkansas longer than anywhere else & that's where this stuff happened. i've lived in a lot of different parts of AR, but this happened in a crappy neighborhood in little rock (actually, it was damn near outside of little rock at that time). LR can be just as cosmopolitan a city as any other. i hate it when people think that everyone from AR is, by default, a fucking hick. i'm still in the state, but i'm not in LR anymore. anyway, that particular neighborhood at that time was just too bizarre. adults were fucking the kids over right & left. i saw a lot of serious abuse & bullshit. my initiations into drugs, sex, crime & my own little rites of passage were largely brought on by out-of-control adults. the adults were mostly interested in staying stoned or drunk, fucking a lot of the kids & generally being hateful, abusive shits--all the while being sanctimonious about their religious lives. vivid memory: there were these catholic kids who lived a couple doors down. their father used to punish them by standing them against the wall of the garage & punching them until they passed out. sometimes, i could hear them crying through my bedroom window. the old man would get drunk & just start swinging. he wouldn't stop until they'd lost consciousness. he'd broken some of their bones, too. when i tried to talk about how much it bothered me, my folks just said that the guy could do whatever he wanted w/ those kids, since they were his. i was informed that i had no business interfering, unless i wanted some of the same treatment. vivid memory #2: this kid, 14, got out of a long stretch in juvenile hall (almost every kid in the neighborhood got to do that gig--except for me). some grown men decided that since the boy had been incarcerated, he must know "the tricks of the trade" by now. so the kid got hauled off in the middle of the night & raped half to death. everybody in the neighborhood just laughed & said he had it coming for being effeminate. he was weak. fuck him. later, the boy sat in my room, shaking & crying. i felt so helpless. i had some deep inner sense that he was fucking doomed & there wasn't a damn thing i could do for him. that night, my family gave me hell for being nice to "that disgusting little queer". when the animal abuse went on, nobody seemed concerned at all. i remember seeing adults standing around. it often happened right in plain view, sometimes in the middle of the street. people just shrugged it off. "boys will be boys," they'd say & chuckle at the burning animals. my folks didn't want me to be "sensitive". they thought that my artsy leanings were total bullshit. they wanted me to be forget all that sissy shit & be NORMAL. i'm the only person in the family who turned out this way (i.e., creative). needless to say, i'm the black sheep. other people in the family have had serious run-ins w/ the law, drug problems, domestic abuse, the whole thing...but at least they weren't "art fags" like me. |
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agree or disagree? i realize that not all animal abusers are male, though. i grew up seeing my stepmother abusing the crap out of animals. she'd punch them right in the face w/ her fist. she went on to teach her malice to her sons, who went on to kill & torment animals (see above). she also hates animal rights activists w/ a passion, because she believes that they're challenging god (her belief: god gave man dominion over the animals, which means that people can do whatever they like to them...anybody who challenges that concept is obviously in defiance of scripture). still, growing up, almost all the real animal abuse freaks were boys. when the girls got weird w/ the critters, it was usually sexual (like getting head from the family dog, that sort of thing). |
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i do remember, in my youth, being bullied by a few girls. they had problems...serious king-hell mental problems. but in 6th grade, a bullying experience turned kind of weirdly homoerotic. this really heavy-set girl used to pick on me. we were buddies, actually. she just had this weird habit of grabbing me & giving me the equivalent of a vulcan death-grip until i sank to my knees in front of her. from there, she'd make me tell her she was beautiful. she'd press my face against her large breasts (6th grade, & already she had humongous tits). she would kiss me while i whimpered in pain & begged for release--not that i really wanted her to let me go. she made me pray to her as if she were a deity. she pulled my hair & told me she was going to hold me there on the schoolyard forever. it was the only submissive experience i ever had that i actually liked. no one ever stopped us. ever. in retrospect, that kind of freaks me out. we'd do this gig every day on the schoolyard. if you were an adult & saw this going on, would you not ask a few questions, perhaps? oh, well. i guess they couldn't be bothered. anyway, her name was laurie. & she was the best bully i ever had the pleasure of getting humiliated by. all the others were shoddy, rank amateurs by comparison. |
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hey, where's the starling-stomper who started this damn thread, anyway? |
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this song goes with this thread. |
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parent's house visiting. he was taking to us and I kept feeding him lines from the show with John Stewart. He tried to laugh it off. |
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sounds fun. |
she would sell her own organs for something like that. it's disturbing, but then again, everything about my sister is disturbing. |