It stings when I masturbate


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By Deechimpanzee on Thursday, July 20, 2000 - 04:46 am:

    It stings when I masturbate
    Into your dream vagina
    And nothing offers the promise of release.

    iloveyouineedyou
    iwish you were dead
    pleasekillmebeforeikillmyself.

    The hole in my heart
    Bleeds when I see you
    And I get it
    That you will survive.
    You will survive me
    And use me
    To fuel
    Your fine growth.
    I am the shit that produces
    1st place roses.

    icannottrustyouiwishicouldtrustyou
    I wish I could hear what you say.
    youdonotseemebecauseifyousawme
    you would hate me as much as I do.

    When you tell me you love me
    My heart just hears lies
    Or the hum
    Of fat flies on a corpse.

    Why this affliction?
    Why this disease?
    Why try to resist this destruction?

    Self loathing and pity
    Has aged like fine wine
    In the unopenable cellars
    Of my soul.

    I sample the bouquet everyday.

    But the blinding
    horror
    is that I lack
    the shred of courage
    it would take.
    To stop jerking myself
    Off once again.


By Joey on Thursday, July 20, 2000 - 10:10 pm:

    what does it mean when you runthewordstogether?


By Sam on Thursday, July 20, 2000 - 11:32 pm:

    itmeansyouarewiththecultofnospaces

    i liked the fat flies on a corpse line.

    i liked the whole thing


By dave. on Friday, July 21, 2000 - 02:20 am:

    thing is: i relate to all that.

    except for the pathetic parts, of course.


By semillama on Friday, July 21, 2000 - 05:55 pm:

    Reminded me of the utterly insipid stuff i used to write back when I was junior in college and utterly heartsick over this anorexic redhead.


By TBone on Friday, July 21, 2000 - 05:58 pm:

    Yah, seems like something I could have written years ago...

    When I was pretty much after every girl I knew. peh.


By James TorC NM on Monday, October 24, 2005 - 10:55 pm:

    I like it. I think that everyone has had the feelings which you so eloquently put into print. ;0)

    Thanks!