well, it's not really love, i don't know what it is. she says hey and treats me a whole lot more decent (decenter? better? yeah, better.) she treats me a whole lot better than most, actually ALL of the other cheerleaders do. i guess it's weird for me to like someone who is a cheerleader, mostly cos I make fun of 'em a lot. a whole lot. i don't even know why i posted this. i'm groggy and just got back from a football game and i have to start school on monday. god that probably sounded like some friggin middle school guy pining away over some crush. and no, i did not meet her at the game today (we had biology and geometry together last year). oh man, i got to go to school ON MONDAY!! in 32 HOURS I WILL BE IN KEYBOARDING CLASS (which i so desperately need)!! i guess i started this post cos i just wanted to write something today. if i can be this incoherent without drugs, just think of the horrors that would happen if i was! no siree bob, i don't need any chemical aides right yet. okay i'll shut up now.

I made Jr.Varsity Pom,that I was suppose to start the beginning of my sophmore year,then I got kicked out of school the last 2 weeks of my freshman year I was so humiliated,but it made me a better person,I use to have a cleaning business,the way some people talked to me,well I,m the first one to hook my yard man Manny with a beer and a dirty joke.It,s pretty fucking tacky the way some people that I could buy and sell would talk to me,humble pie?I had that shoved down my throat!!! I finally couldn,t take it anymore.

Cheerleaders eat their young. This is good for the gene pool.

i dated a cheerleader in 8th grade....talk about black sheep.........i had to becareful when i hugged her on football days (when she had her outfit on) so i wouldn't pick her outfit with one of my numerous saftey pins. It was an oddball thing from the get go. We dated a long time, i had to take off my earings when i went to her house, otherwise her pop would kick my ass and call me a sissy and who knows what else.........she was sloppy kiss and had never hit 3rd base until i came along. Surprisingly, i actually gained respect amongst the school elite, for a brief while anyway.........then she started getting real red neck on me and i had to go...............

I just found out that my sister has first period with her. i think that they're friends.

how's keyboarding class going? do you buy your lunch or take it? I've forgotten what junior high is like.

keyboarding sucks. it's 90 minutes of typing. i don't even want to think about it right now. p.s. actually i'm in high school (sophomore), not junior high.

Hey Crawford, ever been to Portland?

boooo! Keyboarding sucks wild kittens! I'd been using a computer for Years before I ever got to a keyboarding class, so I had my own way of typing and having to learn a whole new way just annoyed the heck out of me. So I just waited till the teacher turned her back and typed my way. It suits me. I don't need to look at the keyboard when I type, I just know from habit where all the keys are. I always skipped lunch. I feel akward eating in front of people outside my immidiate family.

i thought i posted an answer to the portland question, but i guess i didn't. any way, here it is: no. why do you ask?

Me too, Gee. The eating in front of people discomfort thing, I mean. I always worry that my table manners are terrible or that whoever I'm eating with will think I'm a slob. I know I'm not a slob -- except when it comes to eating salad...then I'm a barbarian. I always eat salad with my fingers -- but I worry all the same.

Even with lots of dressing? You must keep a large supply of wet naps handy.

I don't like a lot of dressing. A few splashes of vinegar, oil, salt, and oregano is all I need. Everything is held daintily between two fingers. An ordinary table napkin suffices to keep me unsullied.

I once tried to imagine what I looked like eating, and it wasn't very nice. I don't eat daintily or slowly.