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By moonit on Tuesday, April 25, 2000 - 07:32 pm:

    I want to escape. I want a cute 'merican crossed with kiwi accent.

    Really tho I want to escape.

    The grump asked me to marry him.

    I cried.

    Where the hell did the writer put the rest of my script? Cause now I'm confused and I dont know my lines.


By Rhiannon on Tuesday, April 25, 2000 - 09:02 pm:

    Okay, did you cry out of joy or frustration? That's what we want to know.

    I'm sorry I can't be of more help.


By moonit on Tuesday, April 25, 2000 - 11:42 pm:

    Frustration. If he had asked me two months ago I might of said yes.

    He said he would sell everything if he could have me back.

    It was horrible. It was gratifying. I was terrified.

    I wish I could write the way Cyst can. Instead I ramble and get mucked up.


By moonit on Tuesday, April 25, 2000 - 11:44 pm:

    Jules sent me this.
    It made me laugh.

    "In a scary kind of world it would be perfect... of course, it would be the same world were people don't sleep behind other peoples back, Jack Daniels is free in bars all over the planet, I'm married to a spunkelicious dude, Jamie spends his money (on us), Sharon's not a bitch, I don't need to sleep on Saturday afternoon if we are going out at night, everybody (no matter
    who) sounds great on Kareoki and dope is brought round to your house like a newspaper subscription. Lets run away to this world."


By heather on Tuesday, April 25, 2000 - 11:51 pm:

    if he just did some physical stuff,

    (didn't 'fall in love and leave for a short time')

    and came back quickly,

    i still think things can work after that (i know a lot of people don't).

    -but i don't mean say yes. don't marry him any time soon


By Isolde on Wednesday, April 26, 2000 - 12:06 am:

    Dope isn't brought to _your_ house like a magazine subscription? Maybe I should stay in this dump.
    I would be loath to marry him at all. But perhaps you should stoop to accept him on a trial basis.


By NZA on Wednesday, April 26, 2000 - 01:45 am:

    sounds like a desperate measure - marrying the grump isn't going to change the fact he betrayed you.

    It takes a long time to rebuild trust. Tell him to ask you again in a year's time - see how you feel then. In the mean time, he has to woo you - take you out, spoil you, send cards for no reason - all the gooey romantic stuff. And if he ever sleeps with anyone else again - its over, no ifs, buts or maybes. Be strong.


By patrick on Wednesday, April 26, 2000 - 11:56 am:

    yeah you know isolade, you have this tin box outside your doorstep...like Charles Chips....every Wednesday they come by and drop a sack in your tin. Happy Happy!


By agatha on Wednesday, April 26, 2000 - 12:47 pm:

    don't i recall him earning his name "the grump" for a reason? and then, cheating on you on top of it all? seems like he needs a piece of humble pie. i would at the very least make him suffer for a long time before i let him back into my life, if it were me. but you need to do what your heart tells you.


By Isolde on Wednesday, April 26, 2000 - 02:19 pm:

    Yup. We stick it in the tin recycling box. Sometimes there are accidents, so you've gotta move fast. (Recycling can be pretty erratic...they keep coming earlier and earlier int he morning for some reason...)
    And how did you know it was Wednesdays?


By J on Wednesday, April 26, 2000 - 02:27 pm:

    I say fuck him,he,s a dog,but he may understand that he made a BIG mistake...naw,fuck him.


By moonit on Wednesday, April 26, 2000 - 04:19 pm:

    Well he took me to the Lone Star on Tuesday night, and we are meant to be going down the strip for lunch on Sunday, but I think I might limit these little outings as its obviously hurting him - I think we need to have a break and then re-think things, I do love him, I spent 2.5 years with him, but I don't know if I could ever trust him again. I mean it would be horrible if he said I'll be home at 11.00 and it gets to 11.15 and I would be freaking. Thats not good.

    Thanks guys.


By NZA on Thursday, April 27, 2000 - 01:16 am:

    give yourself time and space moonit. Love and Trust are two sides of the same coin, I don't think you can have one without the other.

    Let me know if you want to go out sometime (but make it before May 7th, cos I'm going on holiday then)


By The grump on Sunday, April 30, 2000 - 05:01 am:

    Fuck the lot of you.


By J on Sunday, April 30, 2000 - 10:34 am:

    If you hadn,t been fucking what you shouldn,t have in the first place,you wouldn,t be so cranky,would you?


By semillama on Sunday, April 30, 2000 - 12:17 pm:

    Eat hot fuck.


By The grump on Sunday, April 30, 2000 - 06:34 pm:

    yeah i fucked up big time.
    I still love her and i always will, perhaps one day things will be okay between us (i certainly hope so) but all i have now is time to wait and see what happens.
    I'm sorry i hurt her and wish i could turn back the clock but i can't.
    It's taken a big fuckup on my part to make me realise just how much i love her.
    Moon i love and miss you so much hope to speak to you soon


By moonit on Sunday, April 30, 2000 - 07:29 pm:

    Did I mention how much I love this place?

    'drew and I are having a month break - no contact - so I can sort myself out.


By J on Monday, May 1, 2000 - 02:06 am:

    You go girl!!!


By patrick on Monday, May 1, 2000 - 11:54 am:

    oh no.......


By moonit on Monday, May 1, 2000 - 04:00 pm:

    patrick what are you 'oh no-ing'. Think me and 'drew are gonna turn into LP and her little sidekick! I think not!


By Wisper on Tuesday, May 2, 2000 - 02:33 pm:

    this is very simple. if you want to marry him, marry him. if you don't.....don't.


    (deep huh?)



By J on Wednesday, May 3, 2000 - 01:13 pm:

    Moonit never really said much about how she found out he was cheating,it would help to get a slant on that.


By moonit on Thursday, May 4, 2000 - 03:40 pm:

    He didnt come home - it was a one night stand thing with my flatmates friend after a party. (Shes a real real slapper and she knows me and 'drew which made it 1000000 times worse), then I guessed and he confessed, then I attempted to beat the crap out of him.


By patrick on Thursday, May 4, 2000 - 04:07 pm:

    "beat the crap out of him."

    figuratively? or literally?





By moonit on Thursday, May 4, 2000 - 04:28 pm:

    I was seriously attempting to give him a black eye so people would say 'hey what happened to you man', but that didnt work so I kicked him a couple of times and whacked him round the head etc and probably ended up hurting myself more than him..... I blame the violence of television ; )

    I've never hit _anyone_ before. I've never been so mad and hurt in my entire life either.


By patrick on Thursday, May 4, 2000 - 05:11 pm:

    thats FUCKED UP moonit!

    if the roles were reversed (male/female), the outrage would be incessant, but since you a girl i suppose most will just let it go with a "he deserved it" mentality.



By moonit on Thursday, May 4, 2000 - 08:32 pm:

    The way I acted that day was _way_ out of character for me.

    And I've also apologised for it. It was bizarre - I felt really bad, but it felt really good to get the anger out through physical contact - I mean I couldnt fuck him could I, so I had to hit him! (okay that was a joke - and a bad one I know)

    This is why I have decided to vent through a personal trainer at the gym (get good body/burn off excess emotional crap).


By Isolde on Thursday, May 4, 2000 - 08:48 pm:

    I remember when I found out that my boy of two years was cheating on me. I was not very happy. I don't think I hit him, though. I just got very quiet and than left. (I walked in on him.) I think it's one of the few times I've ever turned pale.