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THIS IS A READ-ONLY ARCHIVE FROM THE SORABJI.COM MESSAGE BOARDS (1995-2016).

By
Crawford on Monday, July 2, 2001 - 11:40 am:

    I was just looking over my last few posts here, and I am so ashamed to have my nom de plume (or nom de keyboard rather) and email address attached to them. To me now, they seem unbearably stupid. I am sorry I ever wrote them. Even right now, this one seems kind of dumb.
    I think the reason they were like that was I had just moved and was in a vulnerable position, what with the new environment and all. Apparently it affected my judgment or something. So from now on I will *think* before posting. I promise.


By Hal on Monday, July 2, 2001 - 01:17 pm:

    You know most of us just don't upt our email to them unless there's a reason to do so.

    And don't worry about the stupidity thing, we do it ALL the time.


By Spiral on Tuesday, July 3, 2001 - 10:34 am:

    Craw- Not a thing in the world to concern you. Everyone has a moment or two when they take a step back from all clarity. Just rest assured that because _everyone_ does it, you can safely look back if you don't like what you said and say, "Well, shit. Oh well."


By Nate on Tuesday, July 3, 2001 - 10:39 am:

    in fact, you just did it spiral. dumbass.


By Spider on Tuesday, July 3, 2001 - 01:43 pm:

    This was just sent to me.

    ************
    Thanks, Ruth. I had just asked JoAnne about this a day or so ago. Funny that you're still on the account, since I've been in recent and fairly frequent contact with the sales rep. I'll make sure they take your name off.

    Debbie


    _______________________________________________

    Deborah RXXXXXXXXX
    Head, Electronic Resources
    NXXXXXXXX Library
    [address]

    ***********

    My address was all by itself in the "to" line, and my name isn't Ruth. Someone told me this school could be problematic, but this is hilariously passive-aggressive. I had to share.


By agatha on Tuesday, July 3, 2001 - 03:05 pm:

    (i don't understand)


By patrick on Tuesday, July 3, 2001 - 03:10 pm:

    (i dont either)


By Spider on Tuesday, July 3, 2001 - 03:14 pm:

    She sent me an email pretending to write to her colleague so that she could tell me what to do without saying it directly to me. That's amusing. Smile, dammit!


By semillama on Tuesday, July 3, 2001 - 05:27 pm:

    No context, Spider. Nothing is amusing without context. We didn't know she was pretending until you told us later. Our psychic powers are failing us.


By agatha on Tuesday, July 3, 2001 - 05:58 pm:

    YEAH, SPIDER!

    really, i'm just trying to keep myself from feeling really dumb.


By wisper on Tuesday, July 3, 2001 - 05:58 pm:

    uhm, she could have used CC or BCC, that way your address would be the only one that you can see.


    </bignerd>


By Spider on Tuesday, July 3, 2001 - 08:28 pm:

    No, then I would have been in the CC or BCC line. I was in the To line.

    Jeez, people! It's called reading between the lines. Inferring the details. Hmph!


By Nate on Tuesday, July 3, 2001 - 08:52 pm:

    so you wrote her back and told her to go fuck herself, right?


By spunky on Tuesday, July 3, 2001 - 09:20 pm:

    or paranoia...
    maybe.
    or maybe she is just a ditz?


By The Watcher on Tuesday, August 12, 2014 - 05:34 am:

    I have been working on my family tree for some time. And, just the other day I made a terrible discovery.

    My lineage includes quite a few famous people like Robert E. Lee, John F. Kennedy, and Robert Duvall. I have also discovered, unfortunately, through one of my 8th Great-Grandfathers I am distantly, thank God, related to Barack Hussein Obama through his mother's line.

    It is with deep regret that someone within my family line is in any way responsible for bringing him into existence.

    On behalf of the sane members of my family tree I apologize for this travesty being brought upon this world.


By droopy on Tuesday, August 12, 2014 - 08:21 pm:

    you're related to all those people. where exactly did you get all
    this information? gypsywoman.com/ ancestry perhaps?

    if it's true: no, I don't forgive for the obama thing. i have to put
    my foot down. you were vague about it; what you said could
    range anywhere from a direct blood line to either of obama's
    parents (in which case your dna is infected) or you're related to
    the nurse who assisted at the birth (in which case the sin, even
    unwitting, can never be erased).

    either way--you're dead to me, watcher. dead.


By The Watcher on Wednesday, August 13, 2014 - 02:47 am:

    Ancestry. My 8th Great-Grandfather has a direct line to you know who's mother.

    Like I said before, I'm so ashamed.:-(


By heather on Wednesday, August 13, 2014 - 02:22 pm:

    Voldemort?

    Fuck you.
    And fuck you.


By droopy on Thursday, August 14, 2014 - 12:22 am:

    how un-ironic.


By droopy on Thursday, August 14, 2014 - 02:56 am:

    the police just showed up at my door. someone had called in
    about a woman who was being held or something like that.
    three cops showed up and banged on my door. I let them in . I
    let one of them search my apartment. I told them a woman
    could take me down they left.

    I hope they found whoever this call was about.


By Pepper on Thursday, August 14, 2014 - 04:33 am:

    Sounds like somebody either trying to frame you or it probably was heather who is doing this to you.


By droopy on Friday, August 15, 2014 - 01:22 am:

    heather couldn't be bothered with me.

    as far as i can remember of what the cops told me,
    a woman had called 911 (or something like that)
    and said she was being held captive. but left no
    address. my phone number had shown up on the
    caller i.d., so they came to my apartment. one of
    the cops said that the wrong number showing up in
    the i.d. happens sometimes. i let one of them look
    through the apartment. i was, as always, alone.

    i really need to be careful about writing stuff
    like the "you're dead to me" thing up there. had
    that been on twitter or facebook, i shudder to
    think. thank heavens for this little digital
    backwater. don't think i've turned to the right,
    watcher. i'm not smart and sane like you are.


By droopy on Friday, August 15, 2014 - 01:37 am:

    by the way. when i wrote that, i was in the
    library. i saw a book that looked interesting and
    sat down at on of the tables. before i opened the
    book, i checked my ipad to see if was getting wi-
    fi there. i was. checked sorabji and that's when i
    wrote the thing to watcher.

    the book is called "this is a book" by demetri
    martin. people who are hipper than i probably know
    who this guy is, but i just thought the book look
    interesting. it's just a collection of short,
    funny essays, stories, cartoons, and other stuff.

    when i started reading the first piece, i started
    laughing. they way the makes your body sort of
    bounce and quake when you're trying not to laugh
    out loud and is very conspicuous in a library.

    so i checked the book out. which meant i finally
    had to pay the $24 fine for the i lost, which i
    had been avoiding. (it was a collection of samuel
    r. delany short stories). i carry my new book
    around with me and read a story every so often
    just as a pick-me-up.


By The Watcher on Tuesday, August 19, 2014 - 04:48 am:

    droopy,

    Come to the dark side.

    We have cookies.


By droopy on Wednesday, August 20, 2014 - 02:03 am:

    we have cookies.

    mostly because of all the marijuana.

    and brownies.


By The Watcher on Wednesday, August 20, 2014 - 04:27 am:

    You can keep the pot. I have no interest in getting high. I have enough trouble with reality.


By la on Thursday, August 21, 2014 - 11:29 am:

    Oh noes, Watcher, you're related to the president.
    Big deal.

    I'm related to MacBeth. I must apologize to the
    whole planet for being related to someone whose
    story inspired a supposedly cursed play.


By The Watcher on Monday, August 25, 2014 - 01:14 am:

    la,

    Apology accepted.


By Spider on Thursday, August 28, 2014 - 11:06 am:

    I'm from peasant stock, all the way back.


By The Watcher on Monday, September 1, 2014 - 04:31 am:

    Spider,

    Impossible. You are to regal.


By droopy on Tuesday, September 2, 2014 - 11:25 pm:

    she's from roman stock (roman as in augustus,
    julius, new times). she can't actually SAY she's
    regal, but....


By Spider on Wednesday, September 3, 2014 - 07:08 pm:

    "'His poetry was the gift of the Almighty, for there are three
    things that are the gift of the Almighty -- poetry, dancing, and
    principles. That is why in the old times an ignorant man
    coming down from the hillside would be better behaved and
    have better learning than a man with education you'd meet
    now, for they got it fro God.'"

    --Yeats


By droopy on Friday, September 5, 2014 - 01:10 am:

    a few days ago i had gotten another forward from
    my father. this one was called "bill cosby at 83."
    (bill cosby is 77.) it was a standard right-wing
    rant by a guy named robert hall from his blog "old
    jarhead" that had been copied and then attributed
    to bill cosby. it had been floating around since
    about 2010, but my father always sends them to me
    as if they're breaking news.

    as i often do, i send him back a few links to show
    him it was a fake. but this time i asked him a
    question. almost all of these forwards come from
    the same source, a man i will just call n.t., so i
    asked him how he knew the guy.

    my answer was: "He's an old college friend--Dad."

    to make a long story short, i dug up a little info
    on the guy. he was from the same town in rhode
    island, born the same year and went to the same
    college. he went on to run the insurance company
    had founded in 1910.

    i asked my mother about the guy, but she had never
    heard of him.

    thing is, my father grew up in district three -
    the immigrant ward. they were three generations -
    his grandmother, parents and him - living on the
    second floor of a townhome that had been built in
    1850, in a neighborhood that was predominately
    italian. (my father speaks fluent italian. years
    later, when he met my mother, he told her it was
    because he'd "studied in italy.)

    n.t. was of english descent and lived in the
    "quality" part of town where his father had
    founded an insurance company in 1910. it still
    exists today, and n.t. is the president.

    unlike my dad's family, the micks who worked at
    the granite pits.

    but father went on to do pretty well for himself,
    and started to disown his past. when i was a kid,
    my grandparents were still alive and living at the
    same place, and i spent a lot of time there. my
    grandmother was a drab, nervous woman; but my
    grandfather was fun, till he died in 1976.

    my parents divorced in '79 and i went to texas
    with my mother. my father remarried in a couple of
    years. my grandmother died in '87, but had moved
    out of the old family home years before. my father
    told the rest of the family not tell his wife, who
    was from a rich family in newport, where he grew
    up.

    i don't know where i'm going with this, and i'm
    aware it's not of interest to anyone. but it's
    been on my mind. father's son, and only child, by
    his his second wife had contacted my sister a
    while ago to ask her, basically, "why dad doesn't
    love me." my sister and i learned years ago that
    you can't get blood from a stone, but this kid
    seems to have done everything to impress my father
    - makes good money, works for the manhattan
    institute, became ultra-scary catholic - and my
    father's reaction is at best a tepid "good for
    you."

    kind of takes the sting out of my being a total
    failure.


By Antigone on Friday, September 5, 2014 - 05:51 pm:

    I find fascinating, droop.

    And you're way too interesting to be a failure.


By droopy on Saturday, September 6, 2014 - 12:33 am:

    i appreciate being humored.

    i got this email today, from my sister. it's from
    our half-brother dan:

    I depart at 7 PM. Also, I owe you a phone call!
    Last weekend went well. ME liked Mom and Dad.
    During dinner, Dad regaled her with the story of
    meeting and getting his picture taken with General
    Westmoreland. I suppose he's saving the Michael
    Douglas/Catherine Zeta-Jones encounter for next
    time.
    Dan

    i await news from my sister as to who ME is.


By droopy on Monday, September 8, 2014 - 02:12 am:

    was out getting my exercise this evening, rolling
    myself through downtown fort worth. was down at
    the bus station and a guy yelled at me. actually,
    i wasn't sure it was me at first - he was pretty
    far away - but when he got up close he stopped in
    front of me.

    he's somewhere in his 20s, black, short and thin.
    he's smoking something that looks hand rolled. he
    says to me:

    "man, you a supreme playah."

    i sniff the air to see what he's smoking. it's
    tobacco. i say:

    "you think so?"

    "oh yeah," he says after taking another puff. "you
    a supreeeeme playah."

    he walks off.

    i head up 9th street. about 4 blocks up, i meet up
    with a couple headed the opposite direction. we're
    at at an intersection. when i cross, i do a
    wheelie onto the street. the guy says: "i saw you
    doin' a wheelie! gettin' all jackie chan!"

    i shrug; people say stuff like that every so
    often. when we pass each other, he says: "hey, how
    long were you in for?"

    i turn around. the guy is in his early 20s, white,
    lean in an athletic way. the woman with him is
    latina almost a head taller than him. i
    said,"'scuse me?"

    "how long you in for?" he said. "you know, your
    shoes."

    for the past few months i've been wearing these
    canvas shoes with really heavy soles that i had
    found on the sidewalk in downtown fort worth.

    when i asked him what he meant about the shoes, he
    said: "those are what they give you in prison,
    those exact shoes."


By Pepper on Monday, September 8, 2014 - 08:23 pm:

    Man, this ain't right. If I were YOU, I wouldn't wear this shoes for some reason, First: You might contracted a fungus on your foot after wearing the shoes that you FOUND on the street. Second, if any ex-con see you wearing the prison shoes, you can ends up dead with stray bullets.

    So, ecooose me for saying this. I don't wants to deeply offend thee.

    No, I am not high on any drug, I happened to have a close call with someone possible wanting to hire me for a new job today, but, I declined and told him to pass it along to the next person who wanted the job, because Romeoville a little far where I am living at.


By droopy on Tuesday, September 9, 2014 - 12:44 am:

    thou didst not offend me with thine wordses.

    first: when i found the shoes they were in like-
    new condition and had been sitting for hours under
    full sun on a 100 degree day. i felt sure any
    fungus or foot-born pathogens had be taken care
    of. i've been wearing them for a couple of months,
    and my feets are fine.

    second, so far any ex-cons i run into tend to say
    things like "hey brother" or something like that.
    i don't think there would suddenly be a gun
    battle.

    my biggest problem might be the other people who
    recognize the shoes: the cops and security guards
    who might take me for an ex-con. i have noticed
    that the security guard at the library frowns at
    me every time she looks my way. i just thought,
    and she gives me this impression, that she's the
    type who looks like that all the time.


By Pepper on Tuesday, September 9, 2014 - 02:15 am:

    Ok, take good care of your self.

    I am having some trouble with my spanking brand new laptop. because its feature are different from my old laptop. Lenovo sucks, I liked my old HP laptop, the problem is: my old laptop battery just went out and won't work anymore.

    I was thinking about buying the third laptop, and it is so tempting.But I am looking to buy a new anti-virus software, cause my subscription (yearly) just expired. So...

    Lately my personality's have been different. I am just starting to feel like a normal person, haven't had few migraine headaches and my alternative lifestyle doesn't suite me anymore.

    I got to get up real early tomorrow for blood test....


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