c'est tout. |
you just wanna be your own damn self. except i am only 17, and most definately have to put up another year of it. even then i'll be dependant since they'll be paying for college. i don't know when i will really become independant, or whether i'll even be able to function. i dont want mommy, but maybe i need her. i'm just a fucking lost little child, but i wanna be at least a lost person. then maybe i can do something about it. |
seventeen is hard. you're not really a child anymore, but you're not an adult either. you're stuck somewhere inbetween and you don't know where to turn. at least i didn't. things only get better as you fend more for yourself, something i've really not found the value of until extremely recently. you always have some degree of control, even if you don't realize it. it's saved me, it's kept me going when i had suicidal thoughts in the past. |
Do it, if they are paying for college then do it, go to college somewhere else and enjoy life while its paid for by your parents. I only wish I had that opertunity, but alas it was never to be. Enjoy your senior year, you'll miss certain things about highschool that you never thought you would. Then go on to college, meet some nice boys, party a bit, get some school work done, party somemore, party, party, party... And enjoy life. |