| THIS IS A READ-ONLY ARCHIVE FROM THE SORABJI.COM MESSAGE BOARDS (1995-2016). |
|---|
In my darkroom, waiting for my film to finish washing, i was rummaging through a pile of cassette tapes. generic blank tapes...many mine, many nico's. mostly mixed tapes. tapes i once made from all of 7"s. however, a lot of them, are unlabeled so its anybody's guess as to whats on them. i found a tape. it seemed to make me think it was an old band tape....the one band i was in right out of high school. so i popped it in. it wasnt. it was a tape my late dad made. i KNEW i had this tape, i found it when he died. It just totally caught me off guard, as I was expecting shitty assed garage recorded music and i get the southern slur of my dad.I hadnt heard it in years, and I couldnt tell you whats on it. I dont think i listened to it completely when i got it. nico happened to be right near me and stopped, and started to well up. More so for me. She only spoke to my dad, once, briefly, on the phone, weeks before he died. she only knows him through me. But she knows how much i loved him. How much I was hurt by the course that life took him on. She also knows that i, in her words, got the greatest gift from my dad, sensitivity and lovingness. So she got tears for me. Saving me from having them myself. i listened for a couple of minutes, he was rambling on, obviously drunk, about companionship. he goes on to "quote" the bible in some instances. I say "quote" because he's not really drawing on specific verses as much as he is drawing on general ideas from the bible about needing friends and family. he cites his own need for this, for love, someone to talk to. he cites his paranoia as a reason for missing out on alot of it and he goes on to say that in those times, he sought comfort in (strip) clubs. I had to stop the tape before i completely lost it. I will listen to it in more depth, and report back on its detail though, as this post isnt very revealing in that light. But i had to admit, hearing his voice, haunted the hell out of me. He had a much more southern accent than I recall. Which is kinda funny, a middle eastern looking man with a drawl. But then again, Ive noticed the accents of my family members much more since Ive been out of the south. Is there anything particular you've been haunted by recently? |
|
|
|