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I have major Depression. I'm still fighting Social Security for my disability benefits. Those anti depressant medication ads on TV are a joke! Life with Major Depression isn't an inconveniance (I know my spelling is shit and I hope I finally got that word right) it is PAIN!!!!!! It hits you at every level of your being. Physically, Mentally, and Emotionally!!! My life is hell. |
My power steering was falling apart. It has been in the shop for a week. They are waiting for the second power steering pump to be delivered. And, have their fingers crossed that it will work. Stay tuned I'll post all the details later. This is a customer service disaster. |
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Just what I need!!! Keep your eyes on the news for some nut going berzerk in Maryland. That will be me. |
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It's hard to explain. I feel like my mind is bouncing around inside my body like a superball (if you know what that is). And, at the same time it feels like I'm banging my head against the wall. I also feel very suicidal (you don't have to worry about me just yet). I think I need to see my psychiatrist. Maybe even go into the day hospital for a while. |
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</toughlove> An alternative: Let it all break down, all the way down, and find out you are just fine. My door was down there in the misery. YMMV |
I entered the Day Hospital program at St Joseph's Medical Center on Friday. It might help. But, I'm currently just as bad. I'll keep trying. "Aint it great to be crazy" |
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The only way you can be positive is to have a list of things that you will do in the next sunrise. When the day is done, you look at the list to see if you are alive and wait for the moon. Insignificant things drive you to anger that is hidden inside causing you to hate the loves of yesterday. You just can’t seem to be excited or interested in what was fun once upon a time long, long a go. Puff the Magic Dragon lived by the sea in a land of….. Bourbon dulls the blues or changes them to black. How do you finish the journey when you didn’t come close to being in the lead? How did you play the game? You’re not sure that you ever enter the arena and looked for the bull. Tonight, you have written your mind. Tomorrow, you will search for relief and hope for the sunshine and blue skies. |
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In fact, who the hell is Oldman? I sorta like that title myself. |
Isn't that weird. The staff was great. It really helped a lot. Especially after they added some more meds. Better living through chemistry. I just have to keep reminding myself that I do not want to go back to that place in my head. Especially every time my wife says she wants to come home from the nursing home. |