so here i am around people i have known for a long time (most of my life) and i haven't seen them since before the new york fiasco. something happened to me in New York. i was sexually liberated. i am not sure if that is really the right word for it, but that is what it seems like has happened. i realized and accepted that i am a submissive female. and that i am clinically, totally, unbelivably in love with sex. now all of my friends here don't know about this strange fetish i have it seems. that is kinda weird. i don't realy think i am abnormal, but i think i have changed slightly. not really boy crazy anymore, just interested in a guy dominating me. no one here really has been exposed to that i find. so what to do? i want to go to a make out party, i don't really want to have sex, i want to be tempted with it and i want to beg for it. etc. i think i am losing my inspiration from gainng this enlightenment. is that to be the trade off?