Earlier yesterday (im being technical) i had this totally strange vision in the middle of me trying to recover from yet another unending bout of manic-depression. An astronaut or someone like one was in space, and in the vacuum of space, had a light bulb. Then the space-farer drilled (or managed to put drill-type holes) in the glass bulb of the light bulb. After doing so, the character put some type of tape over the holes, and then everything went hazy, but I think that the bulb flashed into another scene, having been bored and taped, back on earth. It was put in a light socket, and the light turned on and from the bulb all the light and darkness became inverted. Any clue to what this could possibly mean?

I take medication so I don't get that stinking thinking.

I'm on prozac. Yet I still get it.

i'm almost officially off of my medicine. i was on paxil, but i've slowly decreased the dosage and in a week it will be no more. i remember when i got on it, i had told the doctor that i wanted to try some herbal stuff first, but he looked at me and said, "that doesn't work with severe depression." i said i don't have severe depression. he kind of chuckled and handed me a perscription. they also put me on an anti-psychotic medicine. i really didn't like it because i couldn't function after taking it. but then i took about 50 pills one night, so they took me off of it.

I was on paxil first, but I was so incredibly tired all day long...I slept through every class and couldn't do anything. I was falling asleep at 8, and waking up at 7 and still being tired. I hated that stuff.

Paxil made me dizzy.

My doctor wants me to take paxil, i have not decided. Any suggestions? Besides my 12 gauge mossberg?

paxil didn't work for my loved one. maybe he will comment further on his experience, if he gets motivated in that direction.

Go with the 12 gauge.

a crazy freak i once knew gave me some paxil, you know, to take for fun......ugh........that shotgun seemed oh so appealing on that crap....... i suppose it was similar to taking ritalin, when you don't need it, you get an opposite reaction. so i was in the head of a clincally depressed individual for a day.

i used to snort ritalin and be up for days. it was like doing coke without the edge. my girlfriend would steal it from the kids she was supposed to be supervising. she's probably going to hell for that. among other things.

i'll see her there. whats she look like?

you don't have bouts of manic-depression. that doesn't even make sense. dumbfuck.

you talkin to me?

Ok...thank you nate. I used that term loosely. I mean, I was on the downslide for a few days...(bitch) Die. I have a bottle of rit. in my house somewhere...I was going to be on that back in 5th grade but the day i started i went totally nuts. Hmm..this has possibilities! Being human sucks. And what the hell did people with these sorts of problems do before such wonderful (my ass) medical developments as serotonin blockers (or whatever the hell the damn things do)? Did they just deal with it? Or did they actually go with the shotgun?

Patrick, what did you ever think of your little purple friend? You wouldn't believe my latest ______________.

the side effects of paxil suck, but umm... i think overall it did good things for me. it took the edge off of my emotions while i learned to deal with things. another cool thing is the "paxil cares" program. free paxil to anyone who makes under $20,000 a year. i don't know what people did before being fucked up was so common and held in high regard.

"It took the edge off" your emotions? Sheesh. All this talk of pharmaceutical dependancies is depressing. Wait! I'll run to the doc and get a prescription to fix it. For fucks sake, stop looking in a bottle to fix your problems. When the bottle's finished, the problems won't have gone anywhere. (Disclaimer: This post is in no way directed to people who have genuine mental health issues and need chemical treatment).

yeah, that partt about Paxil beign free kinda creeps me. Ever seen Brain Candy? yes beav...i did. thank you....one of those and a cocktail.....happy and HEAVY waffles!

True...the drug is, I think, just a temporary fix, but I feel thatwithout it, I'd be a lot shittier. I guess some people need a crutch unitl they can heal a broken leg, and others are stronger and can deal, or they arent constantly being bombarded with crap...

Yeah...OK...I'm just pissed off at the ready availability of anti-depressants...a close girlfriend has just spent the last six months in rehab trying to shake a habit that began when her husband died. My point is...will the leg get any stronger if you don't throw away the crutches?

throw em away??? crutches are expensive man!

Six months in rehab for an anti-depressant? That's a line of bullshit. She may have gotten into trouble with benzodiazpines. Or she maybe one of the many patients I've seen with a chemical dependency via alcohol or illicit drugs, then blame the Doc to save face with friends and family. There seem to be some people here talking over their heads...that's the problem with the internet....everybody is a doctor or a critic. Patrick, Glad to be of service :o)

Also, if psychoactive drugs scare you then go read BLTC Research. htt://www.bltc.com/

CRAP!!!! http://www.bltc.com/

I'm prescribing an enema for you Fetid! Her six month holiday hasn't been concurrent...more a month in, couple of weeks out, stomach pump, back in. Anti-depressants haven't been her drug of choice for a long while. They were just the introductory special. Now she'd rather a nice pain killer, maybe with a chaser of sleeping pills followed by a bottle of vodka. She'll admit herself that she can't blame it all on being prescribed anti-depressants to start with...but she did find it remarkably easy to get as many scripts as she wanted for whatever drugs she wanted...with a bit of lying and shopping around for sympathetic doctors. I don't want to be a doctor or critic, can I be a fireman when I grow up?

I wish I'd grown up when they were prescribing acid to problem children.

i didn't know anti-depressants had a happy effect. jesus christ FB, i never knew. how the hell do i get on your mailing list. i ate an 8th of mushrooms once instead of filling a prozac perscription. i've been prescribed that and zoloft and paxil. i never actually picked them up, though. bi-polar is a bitch, but government mind control is worse. thats right, folks. the goddamn democrats are using anti-depressants to track the weak. target them with their violence machines, HARP and shit. causing these schoolyard massacres so they can push their gun control and eventually erect their facist enterprise. woo! i got through that without using the word "zionist". _____ would be proud. anyway. i kind of like this zephyr person. it's like all the sudden we got a nice new crop.

everyone just head on over to your nearest cow pasture for some herbal treatment.

My mailing list? hhhmmmm......send an email to drano@mailandnews.com p.s. if the box is full and rejects your email, try again in a day.

Cat- The purpose of a crutch is to allow someone to not fall over or to reach a state where their leg can't be reparied...it serves, perhaps, as training wheels, and we need to get rid of them, when we're ready to go back to the "real world"...and I do plan to try to get over some of my "problems" while I'm on this, and maybe eliminate anything that causes me displeasure/pain/etc...then when those things are gone, or nearly, then, and only then will I get off the damn drugs. I skipped a day on prozac just once, and daaaaammmnnn...that was more than enough to convince me not to skip again! fetidbeaver- Wow. Those BLTC chaps are a bit, shall we say, kooky? Nate- Thanks. I quite enjoy this place (I used to lurk a bit, a couple of years ago, then I drifted away, then I returned a few months ago, lurking, and I started posting now) Did the shrooms work in place of the prozac? How did it affect you? Although that probably wouldn't be relevant to me...i've been labelled as having OCD, social anx. disorder, and depression resulting from the two previous and everything else. I dunno, if hallucinogens work better than the prozac, however, then it *might* be somehting worth trying. Just for fun, i'm going to contemplate your conspiracy-esque viewpoint on the whole issue... Jay- Um...what kinda herbs do you find in a cow pasture? That are good for you?

The guy who sells Cameron coffee was talking about snorting ritalin about two weeks ago. Until then, I'd never even considered it a possible recreational drug since everyone I knew who took it felt straightjacketed. I really like my cigarettes. It's the chemicals AND the ritual.

I was talking to A. last night about seratonin uptake inhibitors. Apparently the permenant side effect of these things are increased seratonin receptors in the brain. the brain compensates. unfortunately, once you have the extra receptors, they stick around even after your stop the drug. pretty fucked up if you ask me. yea, the shrooms worked great. for awhile. i did the 8th solo, faced my demons, peaked, showered, and then walked around san luis obispo with bare feet and freaky eyes. but somewhere in there i realigned my life, for awhile. of course, if you drink as much as i was, you end up depressed.

anyway, to make my point: i wouldn't perscribe hallucs for OCD or anxiety disorder or depression. i think it was me not my drogas. i would perscribe hallucs for life though. but i'm not a doctor.

I find it hilarious that anti-depressants have only become big in the past couple of years. It's a fuck up with society. From what I can surmise, it's either that we really are getting more and more depressed, or that we're being convinced that we're not allowed to be depressed or emotional, and that constant balance is what makes us normal. Well fuck that. I have a friend who is dependent on anti-depress. because he's manic depressive. Thing is, he stops taking them once he gets better because he thinks, well he thinks he's better. Then he ends up in a slump worse off than if he'd never taken the stuff in the first place. I hate it. A little insanity is what makes the world more complex. Why can't we just accept it and let it happen.

i have taken zoloft, buzpar, ritalin, and paxil in an attempt to acheive a recreational high. From what i understand about all, expcet ritalin, they affect your central nervous system, which to me is bad. I had strange twitches, neurons firing off when not necessary....on buzpars i had a particularly strange sensation that something in a 3rd, 4th or 5th dimension was hurling towards me and would zoom past my ears, eyes and skin....i could "hear", "see" and almost "feel" this "thing". It was never anythign i could show my friends though. Mild hallucinations. The twitches though, the headaches, the dry mouth. I have taken these drugs and cofirmed i do not need them Fuck, gimme a pain killer or sedative anyday but don't mess with my central nervous system....... my serotonin levels seem fine However, ritalin on the other hand. Pulled a few all-nighters + a six hour drive one that shiyat. Chop chop, snort, snort .......equivilent to weak blow.

My son,come to find out was selling his,when he was on ritalin,sold my cats tranquilizers too.

smart boy, a little Bill Gates at work

special k... is that the tranquilizer? it's a date rape drug too. i knew a girl who worked for a vet. i guess she saw cats tripping all of the time.

I just know my vet prescribed it for my cat when he almost gnawed his tail off,but come to think of it,my son used to help a vet too.

special K is a heavy heavy tranquilizer. buddy who breed horses used to cop some for us in high school. Very heavy shit, lucid, surreal and could be considered a "date-rape" drug, but then again so can alcohol.

so can cheap cologne and lack of sleep. if you're one of those types of girls.

which i am.

Slut! No nice boy will ever want you. (lucky you)

Incidentally, on my side of the Rock, Special K is a really popular brekky cereal targetted at the female market. If you eat it you will have a sensational body and live happily ever after with the man of your dreams. Honest.

My dad used to think I was on special k. And one of my friends got really messed up on it last night. Actually, i just downed 2 paxils like 3 hours ago, so i've got 60mg of serotonin uptake inhibitors in me now...yum. (Appearantly, my perscription for paxil was filled and gotten by my mom before the psych took me off of it)

I'm a nice boy...

My cats are tripping on life.

My cat just lays there.

They've mellowed out. One is on the bed squinting, and the other is hiding under the stairs.

I thought special K was a rapper, ala "whats your man got ta do wit me?".

all three of these are correct. if you were a rapper, you'd be special ed.

J,your son almost gnawed your cats tail off?Thank God I didn't see your cat while I was there.

you're a witty bitch nate. i think there's already a rapper by the name of special ed though. maybe we could form a new hip hop duo. Mc P-nes and DJ pubic hair

or maybe Mc weedwacker and DJ cut the lawn

howabout mc fuck you and dj you ass.

mc bend over and dj ram it hard

Are you two setting up a date???

they're cute when they flirt aren't they?

Gives me goosebumps.

somebody needs to be slapped. this is generally my reoccurring thought nowadays when I come here.

mc pebble polish and Dj bust a nut

How beautiful.

How about I.P. Freely? Czaarina,you didn't see my cat? Ryan is wierd but not that wierd,my cat almost gnawed his tail off,he is wierd.

just point em out gee, i will enjoy this