the party is being hosted by R, the guy i had a crush on a while back. we're not friends, not really. we never see each other. ocassionally he will email me. i do know he just bought a house in south austin, one of those old, small, brick, workingclass-chiq kind built in the 30's. for a while i didn't hear from him at all, i suppose because he ended up dating that girl here who decided she didn't want to be my friend anymore. but about a month after they broke up (unbeknownst to me) they both emailed me on the same day. i answered both their emails, but he was the only one to mention their break-up. he emails me every now and again. i never initiate between us, but when he does, i always ask him if he wants to get together. inevitably i get the "i'm really busy..." line, at which point i stop emailing him. then a few weeks later he'll email me again. so yeah, there's been energy between us since day one. i think he wants me to chase him but i won't. i will, however, go to his party. i don't think i've actually laid eyes on the man in 3 months or so. in addition to cake and sangria, i'm returning a huge TV that i borrowed from some kickball friends of his a long time ago but which i've only used twice to watch movies, and i'm bringing my hula hoops. i have to strap them to the hood of my car with my old surfboard rack.