i saw a lady in the hallway who was pregnant. it made me really excited because my friend tammy and i decided to have a baby together (once we're out of school). she bought me a baby name book a few weeks ago because i was feeling down. a baby... how exciting.

where will the baby come from?

fucking up another human being as a cure for feeling down...how exciting. get a puppy.

how do you know she's going to fuck it up? cynic.

Are you fucking nut,s?Oh sure they are cute and helpless,but then they get hormones and then your fucked life goes to hell in a handbag,by the time you finally get rid of the little bastards,you have to worry about your parent,s,my mom is less than human,she has no friends,she ias a miserable bitch,she is evil and must be desroyed........................

Sorry, ignore me when I,m tanked.

i understand where the mistake came from because i said she brought me a baby book when i was down. however, i'm not having a baby because i'm down. i'm having a baby because i love children. i want to have a child. i have all these intentions of adopting or becoming a foster parent, but i want to experience the whole pregnancy thing. that is my fear though that i'll mess up my child. but i saw how my mother was, and i won't do the same things that she did. i won't lay guilt trips and i will be supportive but not leaching. and as i said i will have a parenting partner, so i'll have support and provide support. as for the getting pregnant part... that is the problem. we'll figure it out, i'm sure...

Asking for donations?

um this is none of my business but after things you said on another thread- and your saying that you won't be like your mother. just be careful. you sound like you have some important things to work through and having a baby might keep you from doing it. i only say this because i've been in at least a similar place if you fear messing up a child, you may not be ready

Why not adopt? That way you can fulfill your own mothering needs *and* do a lot of good for a child who may never know what it's like to have a mother.

when in doubt, don't get pregnant.

and hey, adoption is tax deductable!

My mom's cat is pregnant. Wouldn't you rather just rescue a nice companion animal from your local shelter?

I'm going to do just that this weekend. I think.

mmm... cats are good. i have one and he used to be really mean, but then i sent him to my mom's house while i was away over spring break. he came back really nice. i think he just realized how awful his life could be and he'd better appreciate the nice place that i give him. i'm constantly rethinking the pregnancy idea. i will adopt. no doubt about that. today i'm unsure. i do have one year before i graduate, so nothing will happen soon.

do me a favor, ok? if you do get a child, please don't have any physically abusive "friends" over. even if they don't hit the kid, it's no good for the kid to have to watch them hit you.

ouch ouch ouch. i have no intention of exposing my children to that. i know what it's like to be a child and to want to protect your mother from the evil bastards who try to hit her. i think that is one of the things that have me so fucked up. he'd never been violent before. i didn't expect it to happen. the whole thing was really scary. i'm very unsure about the way things will go from here. however scared i am i doubt that i will just shut out everyone because they may someday snap like my "friend" did. it's so scary to think that people do things that you never ever would expect them to do. i'm very aware of how things happened. i know that he drank. while we met in the park i told him that i never wanted to be around him when he was drunk again. i would never drink around him. no drinking around the kids darn it. so i'm not as irresponsible as you may think i am.

Yay Sem! there are many homeless animals here. It makes me sad. The Irish government clearly doesn't give a flying fartle about it, and it's really depressing to see how many animals are killed cruelly by their owners due to a bad spay and neuter program. Argh. Rant over.