a heart attack. And no one bothered to call me until after he'd already been airlifted, and had surgery, and was lying alone in an ICU on a ventilator. And now I'm back in California waiting for word--I still haven't been able to see him because he's been sedated and there's nothing functional I can do other than sitting here, periodically calling the ICU for updates, talking to nurses who vary from super friendly and nice to kind of icy, wondering, waiting. He always hated and feared doctors and probably had problems before but didn't do anything about it until the pain got so bad he finally gave in. I think he didn't want to be a bother, that's why he didn't have anyone call me, but I still feel...I don't know. I'm so tired and out of it that I don't even know what my feelings are. I feel weird, I guess. I don't know what comes next. |
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By platypus on Friday, September 11, 2009 - 12:52 am: Do we, I mean, does one, I mean, I don't understand families. |
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if i were you, i'd go the hospital and visit your dad. even if he's sedated, he'll know you're there, and that matters. now probably isn't a great time to be speculating about why you weren't called. speculate, or if it still matters, ask, later. |
Families are hard. |
his side. Talk to him. Conscious or no it will help him and you. |
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me. I still don't really understand families and their drama. Thanks for all the good wishes, y'all. I was finally allowed into ICU for a bit on Weds when he was extubated and talked to him on the phone last night. He's actually doing really well, all things considered. |
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I have been having a stomach flu along with a bad headache, no wonder why this bought some bad memory when I was young. Each times when I get sick, It bought back some memories. totally suck. I am resting enough and drinking some juice,and my brother's dog,Custer is lying next to me to keeps me a company. So, have a great weekend Sorabjites! |
able to go home tomorrow! It's still going to be a long road, though. |
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great news, platy, thanks for the update. a long road is better than no road. hang in there. |
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Thinking of you. |
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