* * * one thing that i've noticed is that i'll often have sexual/blood dreams the night before. sometimes i'll have a nosebleed, in fact george has been connected to all my nosebleeds in recent years, since he visited the first time. what was different was that i became severely depressed last night and earlier today. i've been relatively happy since before my therapy sessions ended last may. but yesterday was bizarre and i had to have some cry time. this morning i began to cry because i couldn't seem to do the new move we're learning in ballet. i have a poor turnout and bad ankles, so i often have sicklefoot. i worked harder than ever only to feel helpless. i'm glad that men don't have to deal with george, because some just whimper when there's a sign i've been around. george would probably bowl them over. |
Seriously, though... Have you been getting your vitamins? I hear that makes a big difference. |
TBone's right, he sounds like an asshole. As for the vitamins, try fruit drinks with ginsing and other chinese herbs, my ex told me one that it works like a fucking super cure. And belive me I saw the major difference when she wasn't drinking those things. |
february is usually my low point of the year. something catastrophic usually happens and it's also the darkest rainiest part of the year. i think i need sunlight. i've also been trying to eat more fruit. i don't take vitamins, but i'm avoiding fast food more and taking ballet (it feels so good to streeeeeeetch). another thing i've done is drop my english class. i could never drag myself out of bed to go, so now that i've dropped it, my first 4.0 since eighth grade is within reach. also i think all the sushi i've been eating lately helps. sometimes i hardly get any protein at all and it's just baaaaad. thanks for the advice. |