I was just musing on this yesterday while pouting over the lack of meaning in my life...If I could change one moment or one decision in my life, what would it be? It was frustrating trying to work out if I'd trade the bad, if it meant missing out on some of the good. I think now that I wouldn't have taken my current job, because it's how I met my fistycuffs ex and where my stalker found me. But then...I don't know. Do you think our life is dictated by fate? Or is it just living out the consequences of our decisions and actions?

i think about this fairly often too. i am a fence sitter in the "free will/fate" debate. i think there are a limited number of options handed to us (fate), and we can choose freely among them...... i wouldn't trade the bad moments i've had, i would just try to change some decisionmaking patterns i have developed. that, and i would figure out how to be an amazing singer/songwriter so i can use some of that bad juju for something constructive.

I used to think about this all the time, but now Ifigure: what's done is done, no use fretting. It sometimes gets sneaky and troubles me anyway, but I think any decision I made was for the best, even if the good results didn't appear immediatly.

i find that everything happens correctly if you expect it to. i don't know if it is some sort of cosmic luck, or just something simple like if you expect that everything is happening correctly, you'll seek the positive and constructive in everything that happens. but fucking-a, anthony robbins has nothing on me.

oh yeah, always acting with integrity is really important.

what do you mean specifically by "integrity"? do you mean acting in a "moral" way? or do you mean integrity as in doing what you say you will do/ having your actions match your words?

i'd interpret it as the latter mavis....i tend to regard that highly..... i can't get caught up with how and why things happen...i accept they just do. when i look back, in hindsight, so many steps in my life, my dropping out of college, my moving in with nico, my move to back atlanta, my proposing, my wedding, my band, my move to cali, photography up to the present..... well they may have seemed implausible before, many significant things happened and had you asked me a year/month/week/ prior, im not sure I would have responded favorably. But when they happen, despite prior feelings, it usually seems right, NOW i know they were right. There are certain things I see in the future, that just seem right, they seem natural. I know that most of these things will manifest themselves, maybe not in the way i imagined, but they will, one way or another. and that sorta falls back on to nates idea that things will happen correctly if you expect them to. i don't always understand or project the details, but there is no point in having insecurity that things WON'T happen they way you want.

go through life, carefully do a little good, do a little bad make someone smile make someone cry to see if they care walk along, liiiive but not too greedily and if we all go by these rules the world might be a little less needy yes indeedy. i think all a person can ask for is not to be given the power to fuck themselves or someone else up. otherwise it's up to you.

hum. . . perhaps I should have said "east" instead of "west" that one time. nothing to do with philosophy.

btw i meant integrity as in morals. personal morals. in the morals are subjective sense. kind of. if all your actions are up to your inner personal standards, then you have nothing to worry about. if you have nothing to worry about, you're happier. if you're happier, things are better. of course, this integrity involves living up to your word. unless, of course, it doesn't bother you when people point out that you haven't...

i read shit like this and wonder if we're all living on the same planet. fucking hell. here's my advice: take your pants off before you start jerking yourself off.

that works... of course, why wear pants in the first place? except when it's cold...

I find that living up to your word is highly overrated.

I have to agree with Swine on this one, sometimes I am really suprised we live on the same planet... Although thats only when I'm sloshin' a Vodka & Tequila mix... And can breath out my ankles... I think that if we all just lived our lives from day to day, don't fret the small shit, and just keep living... We'll be fine... And I learned a very important lesson, way back when I was a freshman in highschool... There are very few things that cannot be considered "The Small Shit."

I should've eaten more pussy.

I think I would change having shown Antithesis Sorabji.

hmmm... after going to the gym, shopping for clothes, fighting The Power, and bitch-slapping The Man, i've come to the conclusion that what i really wanted to say was: "try removing your pants before jerking yourself off." or maybe it was: "nobody 'makes their own reality'. the best anybody can do is make a conscious effort to control how they react to the pre-packaged crap we all have to deal with" nah. i think it was something like this: "if one more goddamn chucklehead spouts any of that "reality is what you make of it" bullshit to me, i'm gonna break a piece of my reality up in their muhfuckin' ass." hmm.. yup. that was it.

damn swine. you do this to yourself.

"Chance favors the prepared mind." Yep. Btw, blending free will and fate is called compatibilism. My philosopher-roommate is a self-proclaimed compatibilist. If she were here, she could explain this to you better. But she's not.

Nahh, the way I look at it, and no I cannot follow the advice I just gave above... The world is out to screw me in very uncomfortable places, and it is my duty on a daily basis to thwart the efforts of the entire world in this mission.

That's one way to look at it, I guess. It's kind of a silly way to look at the world, but...that's for another day. I just devoured a plum. That is a moment I'd like to keep. The plum was good. It filled me. It served no purpose other than to appease my stomach. And it was the best plum I've ever had. I don't think the world is out to get me--I'm out to get the world. I prefer to take life by the horns and then figure out what to do with the rest of the bull.

I think blindswine is highly overrated.

rating is overrated.

i wish i had taken that chance to live before advertiing was invented...'course, that would mean that i'd be constantly grooming other monkeys. i wish i'd never gone on that four-years-and-counting-self-hating-spree. and i also wish that i never mistook that cow for a horse seven years ago.

dry white toast?

Six fried chickens and a coke?

Vegan waffles?

tanstaafl?

Acid.... And remember kids, NEVER take the Brown Acid.

Okay. My third table is assembled. Off to spray paint in the dark. Bye, babies.

That's smurfarific, Rhi!

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