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so we CAN all be friends.
For some reason it made me think of Red's, in SF.
I also got to thinking of Red's by a wholly different route.
girl-with-whom-I-share-apartment-and-occasionally-swap-bodily-fluids called at 11:30 to ask my permission before being painted in latex, as it would involve nakedness.
I pointed out that her nakedness wasn't something over which I wanted, or claimed to have, any power.
She just wanted to make sure it was alright.
I guess I must have been paranoid about that sort of stuff, 6 months ago, or whenever we started dating.
I hate to think that males really have a sexual-conquest urge, but I'm not sure what else to call it. There are very few cases in which the lust, the protectiveness, the mental and emotional affinity, have stayed long after I was sure of what was "mine."
very few cases. I can only think of two off the top of my head. the first cheated on me with the King of Sleaze, and the second (I have this in writing,) thinks I'm an asshole, or something similar, which basically precludes her ever noticing me again.
this 2nd case and I first got drunk together at Red's, so that's that.
Thank God for Modest Mouse, in any case.
So apartment-sharer calls, says "I'm getting painted in Latex. do you mind?"
her: you sure?
and then I felt the need to go get drinks. Because... why? I guess it frightens me a little that people perceive me like that. And because I really DON'T care what happens over there. You got stoned with a bunch of assholes? great! you got naked, and they painted you? wonderful! you're coming home eventually? okay.
I just don't get it. Am I growing up? (Sleater-Kinney in the background: I'm not waiting... 'till I grow up!) ((I got to see S-K in concert recently. was awesome.)) so. am I growing up, or should I be worried about the fact that I don't care?
she's supposed to be back by 1:30; I don't really expect her until 3. Not that that matters. I need to establish a life of my own here in P-Town.
although i'm a little mad at him right now, you guy would prolly get along a little.
i think ive been to reds.