It's almost 11 p.m. my time and I'm still up and I'm lit just like my tree.I'm going to make another drink before I get into this. My husband has something very horribly wrong with him and I'm very scared.For quite some time he has been throwing up violently about once a day,I mean spewing,projectile vomiting.He has lost ALOT of weight,I've been begging him to see a gastronomist.Tonight he's been puking more than once,all night long.I want to take him to a hospital,he say's he'll go in the morning.I'm exhausted,I've been up since about 5:30 A.M.,Kaylie got here at 6:30,she went back to bed and slept till 8 a.m.Then Heather dropped her baby off around 3p.m till 8p.m.,and I watch Orion when he gets out of kindergarten from 2:30 till either 4;30 or 6:30.I love Orion but he has issues,tonight he broke a big branch off my lemon tree and I could have killed him,in fact I would have liked to have gotten a switch off it and turned his ass red.Lucky for him I don't act out,but he's a real drag to watch and I resent it sometimes.I can't leave him alone with Kaylie,he hurts her and now that I'm watching a tiny infant too he goes out of his way to be loud and scare her.I watch him for free,I watch them all for free for that matter but I am sick of him and I feel bad about that but he is a little monster.His mother will probably make my life miserable if I quit babysitting him,but I just can't handel him anymore.Am I being an asshole if I tell her I can't watch him anymore? I had to have some dental work done a few months ago and the dentist wouldn't do it because my blood pressure was so high,I had to go to urgent care to get some high blood pressure medicine,I always forget to take cause I'm so g.d. tired.Anyway I have a whole lot more bitching to do,but I'm too tired.If these are my golden years,well just fuck that.
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