I'm my own worst enemy...

sorabji.com: Insomnia: I'm my own worst enemy...

By la on Sunday, November 28, 2010 - 05:04 am:

    The party's at my house tonight.

    I'd forgotten. My housemate's having a little thing because she's leaving for five months in Puerto Rico. She cleared it with me earlier. Now there's twenty people here, another housemate is DJ, housemate #3 is making popcorn, and I supplied the amplification for the music.

    And I'm not feeling it. I'm tired and cold and my friends aren't here because I haven't had time for my friends and I forgot to tell anyone anyway. I can't escape the music and conversations because my bedroom's the only one on the main floor and I don't have earplugs. Whine whine whine.

    And Z is sick and asleep and I don't want to try rousing him from that to rescue me. I don't want to be rescued or to be a party pooper, but I have absolutely no interest in participating in this party. Hate the feeling. Hate it.

    I could go out there and at least dance, but I don't feel like dancing either. Ugh ugh ugh. And I've been awake for longer than I like and now there's a stripping contest. And clapping.


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