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I don't know why I would relay this onto you guys. I'm not looking for pity...maybe a little prevention for you. I thought I was indestructible, nothing could bring me down. I was wrong. After years of ingesting too many drugs, too much, waaaay too much booze, I thought I was a lifer. A poster child for those who have been there with me and before me. It isn't true anymore. I'm just pathetic. I can only hope to get out of this funk. I don't hate myself. I can't operate on a "sober" level. I don't go into work drunk, not lately. I don't feel like I can connect with any emotion without being tanked. Sad to say. The "juice" has taken over. Every week, I state that I WILL refuse to indulge. Never happens. So the cycle goes. It's just all too real. I may be dying by leaps and bounds, or little by little. I don't have the drive to stop it. |
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i need a drink. |
so i can accept my fate with the usual skewed sense of reality |
cheers. |
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Pink, what was your ALT and what type of test was it based on? Many other factors can cause an elevation including biliary obstruction, mononucleosis. false positive d/t drug use including aspirin. Try doing an AST. (ALT is less sensitive in the dx of alcoholic liver disease) Also these all could be elevated with Leukemia. Don't write yourself off based on one lab. If in fact you do end up with severe hepatic damage then detoxification will be compromised, then you will need less of whatever your drug of choice is to remain intoxicated. (good news?) |
are you familiar with Amanda Marshall? She has 2 albums out and if you don't have them and want a "serious" emotion rush...head on down to local record store.. promise!..:) |
gee isn't even in here. and go easy with that trigger finger, buddy. |
ps...Amanda Marshall is neat. |
i found this website while i was discussing life and pain with my gall bladder www.med.unsw.edu.au/pathmus/pathmus.htm |
Shoot yourself in the fuckin cranium! |
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I'm forty six years old and tomorrow I'm having cataract surgery. I'm more nervous about this one than any of the others I've had. Accept the first one I remember. After all it is my eye they will be cutting on. |
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the only danger is if you wait too long, because then nothing can be done and you'll e blind in at least one eye. |
We're pulling for you! |
I can't read to well at the moment. So my postings might not be to legible for a while. I was in the surgery centers waiting room when I first heard about the WTC. A man next to me got a call on his cell phone and I thought "Oh my God, just what I need some idiot yacking while I'm trying to com down". He said his daughter worked in the WTC. But, she was in Boston that day. It didn't mean anything to me until I came out of surgery and heard what had happened. |
Kennedy-like thing... Ask anyone alive when he was shot and they can tell you where they were or what they were doing... "I was (insert location/action) when the WTC went down." This is just plain scary. I feel lost. |
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